words don't come that easy.

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28.11.21
12:30

Sometimes you feel bad about it, sick or sad so you try to take it back, a body better than nobody, since it wasn't going to be her anyway. so you call off the dogs, say your apologies, say how you'd miss their body in the dark, say how you already can't stand the leaving. you know all the right things to do, all the different ways to apologize without ever actually saying why, the truth of it, the real and it's that you're not even there, with or without them. it's that, when the night crawls in, you feel the hurt in your bones, hollow echo chambers that don't talk anymore. it's that, there never was going to be a resolute ending to this, and you were never going to be sorry, you were just going to be gone. but you feel bad about it, sometimes. sick, or sad, so you stay, and wait until you can't stand to stay any longer.

/// hoping everyone had a fun weekend. taking nonna out to try korean for her very first time was the best decision ever after the day that she's spent cooking for the entire family. she didn't get along with the kimchi much but she said that they've got a unique flavour profile for each dish. her favourite out of the lot was samgyeopsal.