01.12.21
7:07
i do not mean to scare you
but i am tired of continually living
a hand grenade always ready to explode.
i have spent last 29-night thinking
if it's getting better and each morning i have
purged out dinner and guilt
which is to say i am always waiting
always prepared to sink lower
yeah, depression is funny like that
walking on fire and waiting to get burnt
because when you are not busy getting mad
you are overthinking to suffocation
to the point of no return
look depression doesn't do much
except throwing you under the bus
and your stupid brain is always the driver
who cannot stop over speeding?
sometimes all i can do is pretend like
it didn't happen because metal health
js the lower caste of health problems, always ignored.
look i have spent the 25 hours of the day
counting ln my fingers if its all worth it
and each night is a big question mark
of everything that i have ever done
which is to say sometimes i feel punished
for existing in a body
sometimes i feel guilty for the air i breathe
because someone has it worse
but damn I don't feel it
because how can i get out of the labyrinth
when i am the labyrinth
the therapist says there's a way to live with it
and i dream i can throw it away
but damn i would still be left with myself
which my god is another relapse waiting to happen
see depression is funny like that
it doesn't want anything
except you and this zebra shaped emptiness
look depression is funny like that
it hurts you and hurts you enough
so that nurture another maze in your head
look depression is funny like that
it wants nothing, nothing
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words don't come that easy.
PoetryI've tried. but i've always failed to contain these thousand words in a few sentences, maybe im bad at expressing macro feelings in the few words that I'm limited to. you might think you know me enough because it's been a long time since i first wav...
