Nothing Lasts

Confusion

(Brandon POV)

Lord knows me and Kyonna have been together for almost four years and I love her to death, but she be tripping over the dumbest shit! Last week she got mad because I went to work earlier than usual. Like since her mom had died I've been trying to spoil her, Kendall and unfortunately that requires more money. Though Ky keeps telling me I need to stop spending all this money, I feel like they deserve it. Matter of fact they deserve it all. I've been thinking about going back to the streets the make more money so I can work a little less. That lifestyle had stopped a year after me and Ky officially got together because she said that isn't something she wants to be involved in and I could get a real job which would be safer because the streets aren't where my head should be.

"Babe do you work tomorrow?" Kyonna asked

"Yea, Why Wassup?" I replied

"Oh, I was thinking we could spend quality time together by taking the girls out without spending a lot of money. I just want to get out of this house. We barely go anywhere now other than to work, school and back here." she said

"Yeah, I can drop Miyah off at daycare before I go to work. Since I work 9-5. So all you will have to do is make sure you and Kendall get to school."

"Okay, so when I pick Kenn up I'll call you and we can decide what to do then." Ky said

"Okay, well baby since the kids are sleeping I'm ready to hop in the shower, wanna come?" I asked her

"No its okay I'll just get in after you get out just don't take forever." Ky replied with a serious face

"Well in that case you might as well because I can't make any promises." I told her smirking

"Ughh okay but don't try nothing I just wanna wash my body and hair and get out so I can go my sleepy butt to bed" She responded.

While we're in the shower I was started to wash Ky's back and she just seemed so relaxed. Then I decided to start placing light kisses on her back moving in a trail up to her next and eventually she turned around and placed her lips upon mine, It wasn't until I deepened the kiss that she ended up telling me, that was enough and she tired. Me and Kyonna hasn't has any type of intercourse since she had My-my. At times she makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong making her distant herself away from me. I keep thinking I should sit and talk to her about it. But then I decide against it to avoid an argument.

When we got out the shower I told Kyonna she could go ahead and lay down while I made sure everything was straight before I went to bed. I went downstairs to make sure the front and the back door was locked before grabbing a bottle of water and going back upstairs and checking on Miyah and Kendall. Just looking at them makes me smile, even though Kendall isn't my child, I don't know what it is I just feel like even if she was mine I would spoil her the same as I do now. Once I got back to Kyonna's room she was sleeping so peacefully so I tried my best not to disturb her after getting in her bed and kissing her nose.

(Kyonna POV)

I feel like such a bad girlfriend, every time Brandon tries to get affectionate with me I turn him down, I don't know why I just feel like things are different between us now. After having Miyah I just feel like he's always "busy" and then tries to spoil everyone to make it better. Like I don't want to think he's cheating because I don't have any proof but on the other hand there is a thought. I've talked about it with Candice once before but she said she sees that her brother is really in love with me and he wouldn't do that but I don't know. I don't wanna ask him about it because that will cause an argument but I mean I guess that's the only way to get an answer. After the shower that's all I could really think about. Once Brandon left out of the room, I got deep in my thoughts until sleep took me over. Soon after I drifted off, I felt a pair of lips placed on my forehead, my nose then on my lips. I would've returned it but I was too tired.

I woke up at 7:30 to use the bathroom then came back to my room and realized Brandon wasn't there. I paid it no attention maybe he was just downstairs. I peeked in on Kendall to make sure she was okay then I made my way downstairs. I went into the living room just to see that Brandon wasn't there either. I also checked the garage but I only saw his weights lined up along the floor. I walked back up the stairs and decided to make breakfast. After about 30 minutes Brandon walked in back door looking like he was stressed and if you know Brandon like I do, he's never shown any emotions other than the positive ones. He walked straight towards the steps without a word and as much as I wanted to go follow him and see what was bothering him, I wanted to get the food finished so he could eat before going to work and we all left out to start our day. After 10 minutes Brandon came to the kitchen grabbed a bottle of water and walked over to me.

"Good morning babe" I said as he closed the fridge

"Good morning Ky" he replied with a blank expression

"What's wrong?" I asked stepping in front of him

"Nothing, I just need to go for a jog and clear my mind. Love you" he said in a upsetting

"Okay, Love you too" I said

Something tells me he's upset about something and he just doesn't want to speak on it. Once breakfast was finished I walked up to Kendall's room and woke her up to eat. Less than 5 minutes, she came downstairs and took a seat at the dining room table as Brandon returned from his jog. I had decided to make their plates which consisted of Eggs, Sausage, Fried Potatoes, French toast, and applesauce. I'm guessing this just isn't anyone's morning, Brandon is upset and Kendall doesn't look like she feels good at all. After breakfast I took the   dishes and placed them in the dishwasher and went upstairs.