Regret

Prologue

Pharm had returned to Thailand not long ago. Just a few weeks before the semester starts, to be exact. He had moved to the States with his mom when his father was still alive and there they had stayed when his younger brother was born and even when his mom decided to open a restaurant after his dad's passing. But when the time came, Pharm asked his mom to come back to Thailand and conclude his graduation there, just like it was his father's dream. The gentle woman could never deny something to one of her kids and let him go.

This is why Pharm was excited to begin this new journey in his life. He barely knew a few people there, the exceptions being his cousin Sin and his cousin's boyfriend, Sorn, but in general he was almost a foreigner in his own country. This was also the reason why he felt so warm to be welcomed by a group of friends.

Manaow, Team and Del knew each other from highschool and were now initiating university together, despite being taking different courses. The girls were into the Arts Faculty and he and Team were in the Economics Faculty. It could be an odd collaboration, but the four got along fast and well. It was like destiny.

By the way, Pharm had told them -- in a night they had decided to taste alcohol --, he was back to Thailand because he felt something calling for him, though he didn't know what exactly. He also mentioned that he had problems with loud noises and nightmares, so the group had this kind of protectiveness towards him. It was very heartwarming to see them bonding like lost siblings reunited after so long.

However, after one of their night outs, to celebrate the end of the first exam's week, something happened and changed all that. Actually, Pharm didn't drink that night because he was in charge of driving the other 3 home, since they were completely wasted. It was his way to thank them for always being so supportive.

The ride home was nice and normal, until a car behind them hit them when they stopped at a red light. The driver didn't respond to the light signal or honks, making Pharm startled and then the driver started to accelerate, pushing ahead the car occupied by the students. The sudden move made Pharm freeze on spot. Like in a horror movie, Pharm watched himself incapable to react and hit the brake pedal, seeing the car being led to shock with another one crossing the sign. The noise coming from the crash was the last thing Pharm heard before losing consciousness.

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Two days later, Pharm woke up surrounded by Manaow, Team and a couple wearing white clothes. They were worried because the doctors weren't sure if he would open his eyes ever again. But if he knew the news he was about to hear from his best friends, he would probably bribe the destiny to never make him wake up again.

"Pharm…", Manaow started and Team gave her a sympathetic look, tugging her hand to give her courage and comfort to say the words. "Del is dead…"

The color faded from the boy's face and he knew it was his fault. His trigger made him put his friends at risk and now, it led one of them to a fatal destiny. Despite the other two being fine, Pharm couldn't avoid the thoughts his anxiety kept sending him.

Del was in the passenger seat, right next to Pharm and they both got the worst of the collision. However, Del was still the one hit by a part of the car and found death instantly. The doctors said she didn't suffer much because the shock made her faint before being hit by the iron, but Pharm couldn't stop his intrusive thoughts. To his surprise, his life was about to get even harder.

He tried to calm his mom and reassured her it wasn't necessary for her to come to Thailand to help him. He had lessened the details about the accident and she believed his lies. However, a certain couple wasn't willing to fall for them.

"You can't get into this room, Khun! Khun! Please, Khun, I'll have to call the security!", the nurse tried to stop the couple entering Pharm's room causing commotion in the hospital's hallway.

The woman didn't need an introduction before starting her line, because her anger made her identity pretty obvious. "So you're the one who killed my baby!", the woman said, facing the boy who was alone in the bedroom. Her voice breaking at the mention of Del. "How could you do this?", she sighed and averted her gaze from Pharm, not giving him the chance to see her tears.

"I'm so sorry, K'Mae!", Pharm tried to say, his lips trembling in despair, tears falling from his eyes instantly, a product of the fear he had been holding up inside his chest since the moment he heard about Del. He was also the one blaming himself, even if his friends, the doctors, nurses and even the police said that it wasn't his fault.

"Don't call me like that! I didn't give you permission to be so informal with me! You had just killed my only daughter!", the woman said and turned to leave the room, but stopped halfway. "I hope never to see you again, boy!", she threatened and left the room with her husband at her heels.

On the outside of the room, a tall man, tanned skin and a death glare tried to comfort his mother. "Don't worry mom, that won't be left out that way…"

"Pharm Trivinij, I'm gonna make you regret your acts.", he thought to himself.