DECIMATE H.S

Reality

*Filler*

H.S

I'm currently walking down the street, trying to clear my head; although trying to navigate through the afternoon crowds isn't really soothing.

I've had a shit day, i've woken up and started to face the reality that I can't have Masie.

I'm too ruined for her.

Our one date was amazing, all before she fucking knew.

This is going to be my reality forever.

I'm a fucking creep.

No one will want me, not the way I am now anyway.

Masie tossed me out when she knew I followed her, saw the gun and bong; but she doesn't know the half.

I walk past all these happy, chirpy-looking couples, making me extremely mad.

I will never have that. I could have, I did have one normal night like that with Masie, but who I am I kidding; it'd never work.

I want out of this gang.

I want to settle down.

I want to start thinking about my future, my family.

I can't do that with the club on my hands, let alone a fucking gang.

I wonder what Masie's doing right now?

has she met someone else? Is she with someone else right now, happier than I made her?

I want to go check on her but I know that will only make things worse, she'll think i'm even more of a creep than I already was.

I just want Masie.

I need her.

I've never been like this with anyone or anything, besides drugs. I don't understand why I want her so bad.

I need to get my mind off this, I need to punch something.

I get in my car and head to the underground fight club.

Some poor air head is going to get his face punched in.