More than Jupiter

Chapter 5

So I did this before, i just wanna make sure nobody is confused.

Basically we're going back to the last chapter, but in Ranboo's POV. So this already technically happened, but it's Ranboo's side of the story instead of Tubbo's.

Just wanted to clarify, and enjoy :]

TW: Panic attack

(Ranboo's POV)

"Did you enjoy it?" Tubbo asked.

He never actually thought about it. Did he? It was actually kind of nice to imagine the two holding hands and being together, if he was honest. Tubbo did say he wouldn't judge him no matter what, so he might as well just tell him. Now or never. He closed his eyes and told him what he thought.

"Well, I kind of did, a lot actually. I really like thinking about it" he confessed, but when he listened to hear Tubbo's response, all he heard was someone else in the background. Something about his mum needing him for dinner?

"Okay, maybe knock next time?" Tubbo said, but he sounded more distant. He must be turned away from is microphone.

"Sorry, I uhm, I gotta go. Talk later though?" Tubbo said, back to his regular volume this time.

He felt a little disappointed that Tubbo didn't hear how he answered his question.

"Yeah" he said, trying to sound as normal as he could.

"Okay bye"

"Yeah, bye"

Tubbo then left the call. Ranboo then began to think. Why did he tell him the truth? What if he heard it through his headphones? What if Tubbo lied when he said he wouldn't hate him?

His breath became heavier and his heart started beating out of his chest.

Did he make Tubbo so uncomfortable, that he left?

He leaned down and ran his fingers through his hair. He could feel the guilt and anxiety rise higher and higher with every breath he took. This was such a small thing, why was he getting so worked up over it?

He stood up and went to his bathroom. He locked the door and sat down, back facing the door. He curled up and before he knew it, his eyes were puffy and wet.

'This is stupid. Why am I thinking these things? He probably thinks i'm weird now. He hates me. What if he used Lani as an excuse to stop talking to me? I can't stand it, he hates me. Oh boy, does he hate me."

He started to have a hard time breathing due to breathing too fast. He sprawled out into his cold bathroom floor and started to sob.

He laid there, sobbing, for around 10 minutes until he started to calm down a bit. He curled up on the floor and the rest of the night was a blur.

_ _ _

When he woke, he noticed he wasn't in his bed. He sat up and saw he was in his bathroom, on the floor. He sat there for a moment, remembering the night before. He had gone to bed really late.

He went back to his room and picked up his phone to look at the time and any notifications he had, but his phone was dead due to not being charged all night. He groaned and plugged in his phone.

He had a headache and wasn't feeling all that great in general, so he decided that he would take a shower.

Maybe the whole donation thing will never be brought up and forgotten forever, never to be remembered by anyone ever again. He hoped so, anyway.

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