Karlnap Oneshots [DISCONTINUED]

Behind the Picture

TWs- Smut, angst, mentions and actions of SH, talk of razor blades, gore, mirror sex (it's not actual sex, it's just one person touching the other in front of a mirror.), drinking.

If you're sensitive to any of these then feel free to just skip this chapter!! ^^

Enjoy!
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Another day, another few cuts on the boys arm.

Karl had been dealing with depression ever since he was around 7 years old. Trauma had caused it, his parents always fighting, and him not having anywhere safe to go to hide from the beatings he had received. It was horrible for a child that age to deal with that, and ever since, Karl got frightened by the littlest of things. Loud noises, anyone yelling at him or even just raising their voice slightly...and especially whenever someone lifted their hand towards him, he would always flinch and go into a panic attack, then go hide in the bathroom....
The boy had other traumatic experiences, mainly with some of his ex's...so there was always that little voice in the back of his mind, telling him things. Which sometimes made him refuse to have any sort of sexual time with Sapnap.

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Today was no different from the other days, except at the moment he had been home alone.
Sapnap was out of the house, doing something, Karl didn't know what, which just made him more paranoid. Karl had gotten a few calls earlier by Sapnap, though he was in the shower when he did, so he was unaware that he had missed the calls until he checked his phone.

There were voicemails that Sapnap had left him. All of them said that he was going out to the bar with Dream and a few other friends. Karl didn't think much of it at first, he didn't see Sapnap as someone who would get drunk enough to do anything bad, so Karl didn't worry too much about it.

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Karl sat on the couch quietly, watching as the time ticked by.
Sapnap still wasn't home, it was almost 1am...

"Where could he be...? I hope he isn't hurt..." Karl mumbled to himself as he gave nervous glances towards the front door.
"What if he just left me? What if he just doesn't love me anymore?"
Karl grew more anxious, his nails digging into the fabric of his jeans, Karl closed his eyes, trying to calm himself down at least a little bit, though it only heightened his fear, the thoughts getting to him...

'The razors...grab the razors.'
'One cut, two cut, three cut, four...lots of blood is on the floor.'
'Cut away the pain...before he gets home..."

Karl said the last thought aloud. He nodded a bit, getting up, he made his way to the bathroom, closing the door behind him. He began searching the drawers, moving things, he soon found his collection of razor blades, some still stained with blood..his blood...

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Karl grabbed one of his last clean razor blades, he sat on the floor. The brunette rolled up his sleeve, examining his skin, there were many scars and a few scabbed cuts on his wrist.
He placed the blade against his arm, beginning to make a cut.

He continued this for a few minutes, putting cuts on his other arm as well, the blood started dripping.

Drip....drip....drip....

There soon was small puddles of blood under Karl's arms, his hands beginning to shake a bit. He moved to get up, grabbing the towel, somehow not realizing it was a white towel, he quickly placed the towel against his cuts, trying to stop the bleeding.

Karl tensed slightly as he heard the front door open, then close, pretty roughly. Karl began shaking more, his childhood just coming straight back to him. He quickly pulled down his sleeves, letting out a shaky breath as he quietly walked out of the bathroom, looking down the stairs. He heard Sapnap rummaging around, probably looking for pain killers, or some other thing.

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Sapnap grumbled a bit, he wasn't drunk, but he wasn't sober. He was pissed off because he basically had gotten ditched by Dream and the others.

"Karl? KARL??" Sapnap called out from the living room, he had seen Karl's phone laying there on the couch, just turned off. He was worried about Karl, considering he had called again while Karl was in the bathroom.
Sapnap picked up the phone, letting out a shaky breath. He walked to the stairs, looking up to see Karl staring back at him. He smiled slightly.

"Hey baby..you okay?" Sapnap asked softly, noticing the nervous and scared look on Karl's face. Karl just gave a nod, moving to hold the ends of his sleeves, trying to keep his arms covered.
Sapnap nodded a bit, quickly walking up the stairs, he pulled Karl into a gentle hug, "I'm sorry I was gone for so long..i got ditched and had to walk home.." Sapnap spoke. He smelt heavily of alcohol, which was not Karl's favorite smell in the world, but he was used to it.

"I-It's okay..."

"Baby...are you sure you're alright? You seem off..."

"I'm fine....just...a little upset and tired..."

"Karl...."

"Hm?....."

"Show me..."

"...what?...."

"I said...Show. Me."

Karl's breath hitched in his throat, not knowing what Sapnap was going on about, was it his cuts? Was the blood dripping onto the floor? Was it seeping through his hoodie?
Karl glanced down, panicking slightly as he noticed blood dripping down his arms to his hands.

"S-sapnap....i-i..."

"Show me Karl...please...show me your arms..."

"I-I....I can't...."

Sapnap let out a sigh, pulling Karl into the bedroom carefully. He moved the two to stand in front of their wall mirror. He moved to pull off Karl's hoodie, setting it off to the side. He moved Karl so he was looking at himself in the mirror. Sapnap stood behind him, wrapping his arms around Karl's waist.

"Karl...what do you see?.."

"U-us...."

"Good...now....tell me..."

"W-what....?"

"Why you did it..."

"I-I...thought you weren't coming home....."

Sapnap nodded, his hands gently rubbing Karl's waist and arms, making sure to feel every curve...and cut...

"Remind me...what do you see...?"

"Us....i see us Sapnap..."

"And who is touching you...and admiring your body?"

"You...."

Karl let out a shaky breath, watching as Sapnap's hands explored his torso. He let out a quiet whimper as Sapnap lightly bit his neck.

Sapnap nodded a bit, nibbling on Karl's neck a bit. He continued with his touching, his hands eventually stopping on Karl's wrists, they gently rested over the cuts.

"Please...believe me...i love you more than anything....and I would never leave you...."

Karl nodded, "O-okay..."

"I love you....flaws and all...alright...?"

"Alright..."

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Word count- 1146 words

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