Lost

ill pass

Being woken up with gospel playing in the speakers, and the smell of food cooking fulling the house.

That would be an amazing thing to wake up to if you didn't feel like the black sheep of the "Family".

"Do you think you'll be able to go to school today?" My foster mom said coming in my room and sitting on my bed. I just nodded grabbing my phone, and the towel, and face cloth she placed on the bed.

"Thank you." I mumbled going into the bathroom connected to my room. It's not like i lack the ability to speak, just no need to speak to people who aren't staying in my life, why waste my breath?

"breakfast is on the table." She said sighing walking out of my room. I could tell she's been trying but i'm just not ready to open up to her yet.

I've only been living here for around eight months now, it was the longest i've ever stayed in a home without complications.

I washed off staying in the shower a little too long, but i was not going to rush this for those folks.

I put on a simple black dress hoping this wasn't seemed as "doing too much" But even if it was i'm not sure that i would care.

"You look nice this morning." My foster sister said making me shake my head at her. If it's one thing about her it is that she'll always try to hype me up.

"Angel, you going to let me borrow that dress?" She said coming to sit down next to me. "I told you to get you one." I said cutting into my pancakes.

"It didn't look that nice on that flat ass mannequin." She said making me laugh. "You is hell." i shook my head at her. "Language Aaliyah and Angel." My foster dad said coming into the kitchen.

"Anyways, you coming with me after school?" She asked making me put my fork down and turn to her. "You already know the answer." I said continuing to eat.

"Ill do your laundry for like the next month." She said trying to convince me but i wanted to see how far she would go. "And what else?" I said side eyeing her. "Do all your chores." She mumbled already having me convinced.

"What else?" I said and her mouth dropped open in shock. "Buy you food for two weeks." She said making me smile, She knows the way to my heart.

"Deal." I said and she jumped up and down in her seat making our parents, I mean her parents mug her.

"Hurry up and leave." My foster mom said causing us to stop eating and make our way to the door. "Bye girls, Have a good day, especially you Angel." He said as we ran out of the door

"Dibs on aux." We both said at the same time. "jinx." We both repeated causing us to laugh.

Aaliyah was so easy to be comfortable around, she never judged, laughed, and always took me serious.

She pulled out of the driveway while i put on our shared playlist that we had just for times like this.

      The ride to school wasn't long at all and was really comfortable especially since it was cold outside and I was wearing little to nothing.

     "Today's gonna be long." I mumbled getting out of the car as Aaliyah did the same. Our schedule was identical since my guidance counselor thought it would be better to be with someone that i know.

      As soon as i got in the hall i put on my AirPods not wanting to hear folks yelling early in the morning, that was a big pet peeve of mine and my day would just go downhill from there.

     We got to our first class sitting one seat apart since Aaliyah's friend Jade wanted to sit by her, and honestly i couldn't care less about who was by me as long as they were quiet.

      I didn't want a boyfriend but i noticed when niggas were fine, and this one boy was fine as hell.

      He's quarterback of the football team, 6'5 (Don't ask how i know that), and had good grades.

      I don't have a crush on him of course, he's just nice to look at, and think about.

    I must have zoned out looking at him but i noticed him staring back at me as if he was lost in a trance too.

     I tried to look away from him causing me to look around the room and back at him seeing he was slightly laughing at the attempt to look away.

    "Angel Adams, see me in the hall please." The teacher said Immediately as he got in the room.

   I slightly rolled my eyes and got out of the chair following him out of the classroom. "Yes?" I asked as i got out in the hall. "I wanted to talk regarding your grade, where its at today is not enough to pass." He said pressing his lips together.

     "ill fix it." I said reaching for the door handle. "Thats not all, I want to get a student to tutor you, My pick for the moment is Khalil." He said making me pause in place.

     "Thank you for the offer, but ill pass." I said making him shake his head. "Not an offer, accept the help." He said opening the door for me to walk in.

     "Khalil see me after class." He yelled as soon as he walked inside the classroom.

     "What did he need?" Jade asked me making me stare at her then look away, we not cool, and we're not friends.