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First day back to school and boy was it overwhelming. I really wished I stayed home today truthfully but my brother would've never allowed that. Besides it makes no sense delaying the inevitable knowing I would've had to face this sooner or later. Being back at school felt surreal. Everyone just kept starring at me. All the sympathetic looks and condolences is really what I dreaded. I felt like breaking down every-time someone told me how sorry they were for my loss like that's sweet and the normal thing to say but I really don't want to be reminded of the situation. It's bad enough that I no longer have someone to call mom at home. I definitely don't need to be at school with everyone making me feel as depressed as I am back home. Luckily my bestfriend was at my side for as long as she could've been today so it did help. I'm sure if we had all the same classes she would've never left my side. I'm grateful the day is over though. I'm a little bummed I didn't get to see my boyfriend—well ex. I broke up with Jason not because he did anything wrong but the sudden loss of my mom just had me going through it and I needed time from everyone. I thought he understood but a few days after the memorial I stopped hearing from him completely and hadn't seen or heard from him since. I was hoping we could talk today but there's always next time.
"Y'all I'm gonna head on home now." I said to my friends.
"Okay boo, well we'll see you tomorrow." They waved at me as I hopped into my car.
"Wait hold up Xhadia!" Simone said as she entered my car. "I'm coming home with you." She smiled at me. Like I said if it was up to my bestfriend she would've been at my side all day. I started the engine and drove off.
I got home and it's no surprise that my brother wasn't home. We entered the house and child what a mess. It's only as Indie came over did I realise how dirty the house truly was. "Sorry bout the mess." I said embarrassed. "Girl bye who do you think I am? C'mon I'll help you clean." She offered dropping her book bag on the floor. I watched as she made her way into the kitchen and just started washing the dishes. I wish I could explain how much that girl means to me, just know that I'm beyond thankful for her.
I went up to my room and removed my shoes and socks then stripped out of my jeans. I took my bra off and now stood in my t-shirt and panties. I threw on a pair of short tights and rejoined Indie in the kitchen.
By the time Xhaden got home we had cleaned the kitchen, living room and dinning room spotless.
"Something look different, what you did?" He asked looking around.
"WE cleaned the house." Indie said coming from around the corner.
"Y'all did good. How was your first day back?" He asked me.
"It was fine." Alot of fake smiles but I got through it.
"Simone, she telling the truth? She wasn't bothered or none right?" He asked her clearly not believing me.
"Trust me I wasn't having none of that. I kept em out of her face for the most part." Simone affirmed.
"Anywayss bestie it's getting a little late let me drop you back home."
