One of The Guys

Your Mine

He growled into the side of your neck as he bit down softly and your stomach contracted in pleasure at the sound and feel. Your head flew back as his hands roamed your body. "Your mine... I have already marked you. And their permanent." He whispered into your ear as he traced one of the tattoos he had inked into your side. You let out exasperated breaths unable to think clearly. Grinding against him desperate for the friction; you felt how much he craved you. This was so dangerous. The way his eyes scanned over you possessively.

You begin feeling him tug at your work pants in frustration. "I'm going to take what is mine." He groaned as you helped him get your pants over your ass and thighs. Your brain was shouting at you to stop. Choso's words ringing distantly from the back of your mind. But his touch was so intoxicating. Your body surrendered to him without getting permission. You want to say something, anything as he tugs your polo over your head, exposing more skin to him. But his large hands caressing as much of you as possible felt so good.

"Suga please..." you cry out not sure if it was for more or an attempt to stop him. His dark eyes that were intensely studying your figure look up at you in a daze. That look was temptation personified.

"Please what... y/n... god I fucking crave you! At night when I'm left with my thoughts I'm consumed by images of you. Do you know how much I want you?! All of you." He spouts off a string of consciousness the tone was so desperate. Your thoughts were beginning to blur when he subconsciously grips your upper thigh roughly. "This is so fucked..." he groans his hand wrapping around your throat squeezing lightly, your face giving away the pleasure you felt from the action. "That face... that look on your face right now... god it's fucking beautiful." He says his voice becoming lower. He places his forehead against yours you could feel how tense he was, as if trying to control himself. "You have to pull away. You have to tell me no." He whispers begging for you to give into him. "Can I have all of you?"

Your voice was caught in your throat. You knew your body wanted him to destroy you but that small part of your mind was still clinging to sanity. "I can't..." you somehow manage to say and you instantly miss his hand around your throat when he forces himself to back away. You hate the sadness in his eyes as he exits the kitchen and leaves you gasping for breath on the counter. You realize your hands were shaking. You were frozen there your mind temporarily shut down. You cursed yourself for how attracted you were to your best friend. You cursed whoever the creator was for making him look and sound so damn irresistible.

Before you knew it he had returned to the kitchen with an oversized hoody and sweatpants for you to put on. You take them from him and he helps you off the counter, his touch still felt like a fire ready to ignite your every desire. You quickly put on the clothes and watch as he fills up two glasses with soda and hands them to you to carry. You follow him to the living room in silence as he brings the box of pizza. You set down the drinks on the coffee table and he hands you a slice. You take a bite lost in your own world as he turns on the tv. You expected him to yell or run away from you but he was being so calm. For some reason that made you feel awful. Your heart began to hurt once again. Did you love Suguru more than just platonically? So many questions ran through your mind as he picked a documentary he knew you would enjoy. He knew you so well and you understood him more than most. Could you be more than friends? Or was this pull simply lust caused on by forbidden feelings?

Again time seemed to have a mind of its own. You weren't sure how long you had both been sitting together in complete stillness when there was a knock on your door. You glance over at Suguru who stands up. "It's Satoru. I called to check up on him while I was in your room. He said he felt bad about what he said and wanted to apologize to you with non other than something sweet." His monotone voice made you want to cry. You nod as he walks to the door and you hear Satoru shout in greeting. 

"It's fucking gloomy as shit in here! Good thing I brought ice cream!!" He laughs to himself and you attempt to smile up at him, he frowns we he notices it was not genuine.

"So tell us about this friend you were hanging with the other night. Is it serious?" Suguru asks as they both sit beside you, sandwiching you in. You could tell he was trying to be thoughtful. But the pain that was laced in caused you to stutter.

"I think he is really nice in his own way. When we weren't really talking he has been helping me figure out my thoughts. And he is a nerd like me. But I don't want to peruse anything because it would be unfair. Also I just met him." Your voice sounded pathetic and you hated yourself for it. Both men just nodded along to your answer.

"I want to meet him first! So I can judge for myself!" Satoru said trying to sound tough which did cause a small chuckle to escape your lips.

"Ooo my tough Satoru! So scary!" You say and he grins and flexes his arm. You feel a large hand pat your head and you turn to Suguru.

"You know we have to protect you. You mean the world to us." He says his voice not faulting with his words. He meant it with all of his heart and you felt them in your soul. Who is going to protect me from you? And these confusing emotions? You think to yourself as you feel Satoru hug you. You were a confused mess right now but you could tell they were both trying their best to remain neutral for the time being. You all settle back into silence as Satoru pulls out individual pints of ice cream.

"Can we watch an actual movie please?!" Satoru suddenly says bored by your current form of entertainment. You find yourself laughing as you hand him the controller.

"Plus I'm trying to fuck Toji. So have to put a pause on anything serious!" You say randomly and both men face palm at you statement. "I mean I'm just saying.... The man is inviting me on business trips sooo." You shrug and they groan. Now was not the time to get into the details of what you were offered. You knew that it would completely tarnish any positive emotions you all were trying to cling to. The amount of time you would be gone would most likely devastate them and you all needed to be in a clearer headspace. You decide to attempt to brighten your mood in hopes that it will distract everyone from the unsaid thoughts going through everyone's mind. You just didn't know how long you had until the walls crumbled. You felt like you were trying to push off the inevitable. But you had to sort out yourself first. You take a bite of ice cream and glance over at Suguru who seemed to be mirroring what you were doing. He told you he craved you but was it all just physical? It was all so damn troubling!