a big change

1 - feeling lost

Boyfriend was on his way to picos house. The ginger had texted him not even ten minutes earlier and Boyfriend was already on his way there.

He was already dressed to leave his childhood home, all he did was put his shoes on, tie them, grab his red cap, and he was ready to leave just like that.

The two of them had been together for over two years now, and boyfriend finally felt like he had someone who loved him. His parents sure didn't. Boyfriend always felt that he would never have that, but now that he does, he really doesn't wanna lose it.

Pico didn't live to far away, so boyfriend was there in about five more minutes. He loved standing in front of the red door at the others house, it was such a pretty color.

Knocking always made a shiver go down boyfriends spin and he could never figure out why. Maybe it was a happy feeling, or possibly something bad, he truly didn't know.

"Come in" Boyfriend heard pico say from inside. Whenever the other invited him over, he just sort of knew who it was. He always had a very happy tone when he told the other he was welcome inside, but his voice didn't sound as cheerful this time, he sounded upset.

Boyfriend put his hand on the knob and breathed in, soon twisting it as he heard a click, the door then opening. Boyfriend opened it the whole way and walked inside, stepping on the carpet below his covered feet. Boyfriend looked over to see pico sitting on the couch, his head in his hands. "Hey...are you okay?" Boyfriend felt worry wash over him. Fuck.

"Sit down." Pico lifted his head. He seemed upset. Boyfriend sate down next to the older, he put his eyes too the floor on instinct, everytime his parents were fighting or yelling at him directly, boyfriend always chose to stare at the floor.

"Are you okay." Boyfriend looked over to the other. He still looked upset. It was a little two worrying. Boyfriend really wasn't looking forward to whatever this conversation is gonna be about.

"No." Shit. "I think we need to break up." Okay, boyfriend should have seen this coming.

Boyfriend's heart sank. "Why, I-i don't understand." Why was this happening. Why did he have to come here, he should have said he was going to sleep. Boyfriend started to feel his face heat up. Why was it so hot all of the sudden.

"Im sorry, I just, I don’t feel the love anymore." Pico looked over to boyfriend. "Im sorry."

"We both know that's not true." Boyfriend felt like he was gonna snap.

"What?" Pico looked dumbfounded for some reason. Boyfriend didn't care how the other reacted, he just knew he couldn't lose the last good thing in his life.

"Why are you really breaking us up, we both know you not loving me isn't true." Boyfriend stood up from the couch. "Telling me the real reason you wanna leave me." Boyfriend was pissed. Later on, he realized he screwed it all up.

"I just don't feel it anymore." This was Boyfriends breaking point.

"You are lieing." Shit, he should have just walked out and left it, but fuck, he didn't want the only thing he had to end. All he had after the break up is his parents, but he was so sick of the yelling and telling people he fell when he hung out with them. Family Friday fucking sucked, he didn't want to have it everyday.

"Dont tell me im lieing, I know how I feel."

"No you don't!" Fuck, stop it already and leave, holy shit.

"Yes I do!"

"Telling me the truth!"

"When I look at you, all I see is that day!" Boyfriend pulled back, was he talking about...shit. "everytime I look at your face, all I can think about is that fucking day! I need it to all go away, and that means you too! Do you think I'm lieing now!?" Pico was the one looking angry now. If boyfriend could look closer, he swore he would have seen tears in the others eyes.