I Wish

Chapter Ten-Messed it up

I WISH

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CHAPTER TEN

ZAYNS POV

"So, how is your relationship with your girlfriend? Jessica Lane, I believe?" Said the interviewer, as she waited for me to respond.

I took a loud gulp, as I tried to hide my uncomfortable nature. "It's going great!" I said, as I tried to recite the words Simon had given me. "I love her, and that's all that matters" I smiled, glancing at Harry as he gave me a sympathetic smile.

"And I've heard she is a model? How do you feel about the sudden attention she is receiving?" Tracie, the interviewer asked. "I think it's great! She's an amazing model, and deserves all the attention she's getting" I said, as relief washed over me. I'd practiced these answers for hours, not wanting to disappoint Simon any more than I'd already had.

She nodded, as she turned her attention to the boys, talking about a matter that didn't concern me.

Then I zoned out. Not paying any attention what so ever to my surroundings, I started to think. I thought about my situation. I was dating Jessica, out of my own will. I could've said no to Simon, and end the relationship, but I didn't, because I was selfish, and arrogant, and a douche of a guy, who didn't have a care about anybody's feeling.

I didn't even listen to Scarlett. I didn't give her a chance to explain, and I sure as hell didn't even look at Niall.

For the past two weeks, I had been avoiding him at all costs.

Walking out when he was in the room, turning down an offer if he was involved, and making snarky comments when he tried to talk to me.

I was a fool, I made a mistake. And I needed to make it right.

My thoughts were brutally interrupted by a squeaky, and unexpected squel coming from Tracie.

"Well! Thats all the time that we have for today! Join us next week when we learn a new recipe from famous, and fairly attractive, chef Gordon Ramsey!" She waved at the crowd, earning a "And cut" from the producer behind the camera.

The boys and I stood up, straighting our non existent wrinkles on our trousers, we walked along the stairs and into the backstage area. I watched as Niall sat on one of the sofa in the corner of the room. I waited a moment, before walking up to him and sitting beside him. ''Listen man, I know I fucked up, and I didn't really give you guys a chance to explain but-'' ''And now you want an explanation so you can feel better and dump Jessica and finally go back to Scarlett?'' He finished my sentence, putting me to ease. I nodded eagerly, waiting for him to explain.

He took a deep breath, before rubbing him thighs. ''We went to the fair, and you know, had fun" He started. "Went on all the rides, had different foods that we hadn't heard of, and yeah. But she fell asleep on our ride home, and when I woke her up, we just started talking. Listen Zayn, I had no intention of kissing her. It was just in spur of the moment, you know? I was waiting for a private time to talk to her about a girl I wanted to ask out, so believe me, I didnt have any intention of kissing her. We just got caught up in the moment. And then she started to freak out, telling me she still had strong feelings for you. I told her I didn't like her that way, and the feelings were mutal. When we knocked on the door, Naima opened up with tears in her eyes, telling us you saw us kiss, and you can probably guess what went on from that'' He finished, looking at me for any signs of yelling, or another spaz of a moment.

I sinked my head into my hands, feeling not only idiotic, but arrogant, and stuborn for not giving Scarlett a chance to explain. ''Niall'' I cried. ''What am I gonna do? Scarlett probably hates me, and the fact that I increased my PDA with Jessica probably didn't help me anyway'' I said, rubbing my temple.