Rocket | H.S

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this is how i imagine the photo :) ^

I never planned to tell her I was leaving her. It's a little selfish, I know. I gathered that a while ago really.

I just never knew how to bring it up with her. I know she's going to have a blast with Amara again, but the little teary-eyed girl she was last night really made me rethink.

I'm sorry Penelope. I will be back soon.

"Come here." I bring her in for a massive cuddle.

She comes in despite her sadness. Her little arms come around my neck and she pulls me in as tight as her little arms would let her.

"You'll be fine." I kiss her on the cheek before resting my chin on her shoulder once more. "I pinkie promise you."

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She was always in my thoughts that girl. My little me. 

I said goodbye to her yesterday, letting her know I would only be gone for one full day. I will be back for her later sometime tomorrow, but for the mean time I have to do my work. 

Me and Amara stayed at home. We didn't need to work and it was much more ideal and safer to just keep a low profile. 

The only thing I have been working on recently if fulfilling my childhood dream that a few years ago I had given up on. I couldn't believe I was here where I was. It was just so magical to me. 

Here I was, laying on the rubber athletics track. We just took photos in our uniform that was given to us today for the first time. It fit perfectly and I've never felt so professional. 

I was at such a high calibre now and I have seven people to thank. 

Harry. 

Harry has supported me through it all. Through every decision and 'what if' there has been. He has done his late-night researches, looking up where I can do this or that. He was as committed to this goal and dream just as much as I have been. He has taken Penelope out if I needed to get away, go on a run or do whatever I needed to do. He has been a complete true angel to me the day I met him. 

Amara. 

Amara has never stopped loving me or changed her ways ever with me. From my ugly cries and my breakdowns where I wasn't even safe, she stuck by and never left me. She was so excited to become an aunty and spent so much time, effort and money with me during my pregnancy. When Penelope was born, she took her right under her wing and helped raise her to the beautiful blossoming girl she is. I would not be alive if Amara wasn't here. 

Zayn.   

Zayn has kept me safe. Helped me realize what I needed to see even when I never wanted to. He has always taken things lightly, helped me get through it all with a little bit of lenience. He taught me how to express who I am and how to come forward if I ever needed help. Zayn kept my body going when it never wanted to continue its fight. 

Louis. 

Louis kept my pregnancy entertained. He kept a large secret for his best friend and for me. Louis showed me a part of life where you can just laugh and not be so stiff all the time. He stuck by, really showed me what it's like to just feel free and welcomed for once on this planet. He showed me the colour in this earth, even when it felt so dull. 

Niall. 

Niall is like louis yet different. Niall never taught me how to laugh, he taught me how to get into positions and find places that will make you laugh. He has taken me and my daughter on little adventures he swore I couldn't tell Harry about. Going through random bush-lands and jumping off piers and bridges. Niall showed me the magic of the world, not the color.