Some poetry shit

TWENTY EIGHT

Honestly I hope I crash and die tonight.
I don't want you to get hurt.
Don't want to see it all,
The dark red liquid, your bruises, your eyes where salty fluid is coming from.
I could never see it, could never even imagine it
My dear I could never hurt you on purpose
Leave you on purpose
Hate you on purpose.
I can't take it anymore, I'm wishing on a daily bases I wouldn't have given you my promise to stay.
Everyday I want to leave from this hell but I can't because I can't leave you.
My mind's telling me I should just go
I should forget you.
Should stop convincing myself you'd care.
Wouldn't you just go on without me!?
Wouldn't your world keep on spinning as fast as it did before.
Wouldn't you just move on and forgive me one day.
Funny to think about it, you wouldn't need to forgive cause you wouldn't care at all, isn't that true!?
Look me in the eyes and tell me you'd care.
Look me in the eyes and tell me you love me as strong as in the beginning.
Look me in the eyes and tell me I am still attractive, that you still like how I look.
Look me in the eyes and tell me that we're not just a mess.
Look me in the eyes and tell me that I am not just a mess!
But is this what I want?
Do I want to know that you'd care?
Do I want to know that you still love me?
Do I want to know all the things I'm asking myself lately when I can't fall asleep?
Do I want to know that you still feel the same, you're feelings are as strong as mine?
Wouldn't that make it all harder.
I don't want to kill myself.
I know I cannot kill myself.
But lately I wouldn't care anymore if I'd die.
You'd survive without me!
I know you would!
You're so strong!
I love you with every bone!
I love you with every beat my heart makes!
I love you with every tear I cry!
I love you!
I'll love you forever!
Goodbye <3