Sylvie Maradona: The Story Of A Monster

Chapter 19: I Want to be Free

      {Everyday above the ground is a good day.}

  William, just like Sylvie, was coming from a very strict family. His parents, both professors, were having extremely high expectations from him. He didn't want to disappoint them. He spent his entire childhood trying to be the perfect child but he didn't manage to do it. His parents were never satisfied.
No matter how hard he tried, no matter how high his grades were. He was never enough. At the age of 16, he met his best friend, Matt. He was a year older than William, a tall, kind of skinny boy with long brown locks. He was living, most of the time, alone at his house, since his father had left when Matt was still a baby and his mother was traveling here and there for unknown to him reasons. He didn't care a lot about life. He was just vibing along with the river. He was going with the flow and trusting universe.

"Hey man, you need to be free you know. You have to do whatever makes you happy. Don't worry about your parents. It's your life not theirs. Put yourself first."
Matt had a lot of ideas like this. He was always talking about freedom and he used to say that the most important thing in someone's life is his inner peace. A good sleep at night without stress or worries.

"Everyday above the ground is a good day."

He taught William a lot of theories like these and just like that the youngest child of the Collins family started hanging out a lot with this mysterious dude.
William started not caring about his grades or what his parents were saying. They were making him feel bad after all. Except the fact that they were never satisfied with anything, they were also creating insecurities for him. William was a really attractive boy and most of the girls in his class were having a crush on him, but he never felt any short of romantic attraction to any of them.
He was skipping classes all the time, going to smoke weed along with his new friends.
"Lemme show you a way to travel into amazing places for a small amount of cash."
  Matt used to say that any short of drugs were a cheap passing to the other side. And only when you were high you were able to see the real world.

William took the cigarette and placed it on his lips slowly taking the smoke in his mouth and then pushing it down his throat. And that was it. He felt his vision going slowly blur and his thoughts were cloud of words. He couldn't form a sentence. He layed his back on the ground and felt his entire body relaxed. He couldn't think or move. He was flying onto the sky. He got lost in a place full of colours and weird shapes. There were non-human creatures there. They were strange.
  He suddenly heard Matt's voice ringing like a bell in his ears.
"Hey Will...come on man. Get up."
  The weed's effect was done. That was it. A tiny little escape from this world and then back to reality. This miserable reality.
  As the two boys were walking back to Matt's house, where they were usually chilling after school, William had a heavy feeling in his chest. There was something that wasn't letting him be free. He was doing whatever he wanted to do, but he still wasn't free.
  When they got in the house and threw their bodies on the couch he said
"Hey Matt, can I ask you something?"
"Sure man." The other boy said opening a can of coke.
"What do you think I have to do to be free?"
"Accept yourself. Delete the taboos they taught you and do whatever you want."
"But that's what I'm doing. But I still feel something heavy in me."
"Oh well...what's the biggest taboo your family or society taught you?"
William took a minute to think what could be. But he didn't find something. After a few more minutes of thinking Matt got up from his seat and walked towards the bedroom.
"Hey, were are you going?" William asked. He didn't get an answer so he went back into thinking more about what could possibly be this feeling.
  Suddenly a memory hit him. His father's words when he was almost 10 years old.
"Willy, if you want to be a respectful man in the future don't be three things. Poor, liar and gay."
  He grew up knowing that there was not chance he could he homosexual since this was something bad.
  Matt had told him that people must be free to hug, kiss or fuck whoever they want no matter their gender and he agreed. All these years, his classmates were talking about boobs and stuff but he was never interested in such conversation.