winter
cloud: why
winter: ha? aus k lng ?
cloud: bakit mo sinabi kay jeno na may gusto ako kay jisung ? bakit di mo sinabi na pinsan mo pala siya ?
winter: bawal ba?
cloud: you dont have the right ok
cloud: ako lang ang may karapatan
winter: ano ba nangyayari cloud
cloud: JUST WHY OH MY GOD
cloud: you dont know and you will never understand
cloud: wag mo muna akong kakausapin, nakikiusap ako
winter: ano bang problema mo? sorry, ok? i didnt know na telling everyone about your feelings is a big deal to you
cloud: so hindi lang si kuya jeno sinabihan mo?
winter: nabanggit ko din sa iba nating classmates
cloud: wtf omg
cloud: wag mo muna ko kakausapin pls im begging
cloud threw his phone away. bigla na lang tumulo ang luha niya and there he found himself on his bed, hugging his knees while staring at himself in the mirror in front of him.
everything came back. lahat ng masasamang alaala niya noon ay isa-isa nang nanunumbalik sa isipan niya. nanginginig na siya hindi dahil sa lamig na lumalabas sa aircon sa kwarto niya kundi sa takot.
"cloudy!"
he doesn't seem to hear mark calling for him outside. all he could hear is the splashing of the water, the laughters, the sound of the slaps and punches. he can see himself being beaten to death in the mirror.
it's all coming back.
"cloud?"
hindi na nga niya namalayan na pumasok na si mark sa kwarto niya. he rushed to him when he saw his state.
"cloud, talk to me. markie's right here, i'm right here."
niyakap niya nang mahigpit si cloud kahit pa hindi ito nagalaw. inalo niya ito nang inalo hanggang sa lumakas ang mga hikbi niya.
cloud quickly wrapped his arms around mark's body. patuloy lang sa pag-iyak si cloud habang nakayakap pa rin kay mark, the latter did not stop caressing his back.
nakita naman ni mark sa salamin na pumasok ang kanilang ina sa kwarto, he just shook his head sideways and his mother nodded.
alam nila ang nangyari kay cloud. isang taon din ang inubos nila para lang matulungan nila si cloud na makalimot sa trauma na dinulot sa kanya noong high school.
pahirapan pa ngang i-enroll si cloud ngayong college. nag-home school siya for 2 years and his family decided to finally enroll him in a university. and they did.
but this happened.
hindi na napigilan ng mama niya na maiyak. nakatitig lang siya sa dalawang anak na magkayakap.
ilang minuto pa eh natigil na sa pag-iyak si cloud, turns out he fell asleep.
mark gently laid him down in his bed but he didn't leave. ayaw niyang magising na naman si cloud ng mag-isa.
"anong nangyari?" tanong ni mother dear kay mark pero wala naman itong maisagot. but one thing's for sure, he thought. alam niyang ganito ang nangyayari noon sa nakababatang kapatid when he's haunted by his past.
umiling na lamang si mark at matapos ang ilang minutong pagtitig ng ina kay cloud eh nagdesisyon na rin siyang lumabas ng kwarto.
mark stared at his phone. then to cloud. them back to his phone. ghen back again to cloud. he's in deep thought.
we all have different traumas and if you're dealing with one, i hope that you'll get better soon. it's hard to forgive and forget but we all have the time in the world to heal. xo
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