I hate family outings.
When ones family lives under a thick messy, fake facade of happiness. "Quality time" isn't actually quality time.
It's not that I'm not grateful
but everybody in the family acts so fake in public, to the point that it makes you want to throw up.
I'm even fake.
We put on the fake facade so the public perceive us as happy and content.
On the inside we truly don't love each other.
It's like the whole family shares emotions
Two of them can't be sharing the same emotions
There are some emotions we're not allowed to feel
One's sadness and anger is an opportunity for another one's happiness and pride.
The brother believe that if she is upset, it is his time to prove to the family that he is superior than her, and not the failure that everyone thinks he is.
We're all failures.
Don't worry he is not a failure.
How can one be a failure, if one never tries... at anything.
While the sister is also fake.
She is not one for talking and interacting. She is always crying, and always tired. There are emotions she is not allowed to feel.
Why, not even she knows.
She never tells you everything, because she feels like nothing.
She feels like a speck of dust on the wall
Just forced to watch everything fall before her
The mother is trying her best. She wants to protect the girl.
But how can you protect someone from their own family.
She has the ideal life in mind, but when she realizes her life is not even close to being ideal, she fixes it force, brute force.
Trying to salvage anything that she can.
Trying to pick up the broken pieces and make something whole again. How can something be whole, when there wasn't enough pieces to begin with.
The father is about worst as the boy. The father pretends to have his life together, but in the inside is completely falling apart. He tries to make his dreams a reality.
But he doesn't try, he just dreams about it. Then complains when it doesn't happen.
The reason why I don't like family outings because it always ends up worst than it started.
It usually ends in awkward silence because one of us fighting.
Or it ends in someone crying because they got their feelings hurt.
It's like the whole family shares emotions
Two of them can't be sharing the same emotions
There are some emotions we're not allowed to feel
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Within Me
PoesiaThese poems/stories are a collection of thoughts from a girl's childhood. Her childhood has not been the easiest. These poems are a form of escape from the girl's harsh reality. She displays her emotions as if they were alive themself. A collection...
