RANDOM THOUGHTS

4. My Reason Why

It took me a very long time to discover myself in a way that I can express myself, my thoughts and visions. Is there anyone reading this? Can I really reach you with my words? Do I make a difference? That remains a question, but I'd like to try. And this is why:Along the way I found out what works and what doesn't work for me. As I always say, and it is and remains a cliché, treating another as you would like to be treated yourself is the key. Unfortunately, I cannot control how someone else thinks, how they treat me
and in what situation that has brought me. A lot has happened so that I have lost hope often enough, confidence has been damaged and I have often stood on the brink of collapse. Yet with time and awareness I have found my back and I have kept my goal in mind. I want to show who I am, not how someone else presents me or treats me. I want to share how I think and how things can be improved, I want to help those who have experienced the same thing, I want to make this world a better place, at least I want to try.

When I was in a worse state, it was always something that was missing. Someone who understood me, who felt what I felt, who could articulate what was going on inside of me, someone who took care of me,someone who could guide me through the search and name of all chaos inside of me. But when that person was not there, I only had two options, and i chose to fight. I wanted to discover who I was, what caused my thoughts, my questions and my emptiness, and how I could fill, name and express it, how I could find myself in the chaos, and make the chaos in the world change. I went through a development and growth that I never envisaged until a few years ago.

I am an introvert, I am HSP(Highly Sensitive Person), someone with a extra sense, I see, I feel and think deeply, intense and often. This has always been something that got in my way, and what I am uncertain about, I feel more vulnerable, because when you feel and experience everything so intensely, it can cause you enormous damage. I learned my lessons in this and formed my vision and passion. I want to help others see and feel that things can be different. Because it is possible, as long as you are willing to look at yourself with all pure and genuine intentions and to express this.