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He was finally pleased but his smile waned glimpsing at her burning eyes. He had the same strange sensation even in his heart. 

"Jungkook..." His hands trembled merely by her touch, blood rushing as he heard love's sweet replying.

"Hm?"

"I wish I could explain it better," She nearly murmurs adverting her gaze, pulling his hands away from her fervent cheeks. "Take my advice and leave, I'm not good for you."

I wish it wasn't true

His heart skipped a few beats and then crashed. 

How can he just let go when she is his future, the woman who meant to steal his heart and take his life.

That beautiful smile taught him to see a little way into the darkness of his life with no friends in the movement. His past friends have already been drawn away to different jobs at different places that it's hard to catch up.

It was tough being lonely, socially anxious to make new friends but that should be okay. He just wants someone to love him, someone to need him.

And she is perfectly standing in front of him to make him feel secure... his lovely social butterfly. He didn't know when he got so suited, so habituated to her funny plans, her talks and her everything that he pleases to know more. 

Emerald guilty eyes and her white little lies

I played dumb but I always knew

That I'm just a burden to her, 

maybe did even worse

I kept quiet so I could keep her

Jungkook even felt ashamed at times, but he don't want to feel that way. 

"You tell me what to do." His heart pounded hard. He didn't get a chance to prove himself.

I had good intentions

And the highest hopes

But I know right now

That probably doesn't even show

"Just move on... find someone promising. It doesn't have to be me, Jungkook," She clarified putting his mom's opinion first that it mattered the most. "It's unfair to you. I'm imperfect for you... your mom and your whole family."

Whatever the reason, gloom tugged at his sinking heart, he looked in the direction of her unwilling to love him, to need him, to walk home with him.

"Don't say it's unfair to me..." He ended up more afraid. He know he has to be cool and calm about what she was telling him. But she did the opposite of what he wanted to hear. 

It ain't funny when he gave his all to work.

"I'm being honest here."

She wasn't aware that she made him miserable. If she really wanna know when she is away from him, he's unfortunate than ever.

Wish he could explain it to her, he wishes it wasn't true-believing under his mom's influence. It scared him to death but still breathing.

"What the hell happened? Look here... Look at me, Kim Hyesun!" He exclaimed finally losing his sanity. He dares to ask yanking her close, cupping her face up. "Why are you acting like you don't even care? Why can't you love me back? Why fool me?! Please explain to me! I want to know!"

Her heart quickened again, and her palms grew sweaty seeing him in such pain, but she knew from experience there was nothing more she could do.

Hyesun mustered up a cold glare, wriggling away. His heart still hammering with fear again. 

"I'd never been treated like this shitty, you make me hate everything. You never pay attention to what your mother wants. I don't talk shit about you, never told anyone anything bad so don't waste the time I don't have and don't try to make me feel bad!"

"Baby, you misunderstood my mom. She never meant—"

"Don't you blame me again! You ruined everything good! You always said I misunderstood your mom. She's so right cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything and all that you did was make me fucking sad! Just fucking leave me alone!"

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If things go left turn right... 🙃

A/N: I cried yesterday... a lot since the last chapter I uploaded. I'm feeling so upset about the whole story. 😭