Behind the Doors (a teen mom story)

Working it out

After seeing the text and talking with my mom I decided that I was going to try to work it out with km. I realized that I was not ready to deal with court. I texted km and told him that he can see her when he prove it can be a good father. Km was at the birth of serenity he got to hold her first. But after we got released from the hospital nobody could get in contact with him. he did not text or call he did not buy her anything. I knew from that moment on that this was going to be a long ride. I knew that he wasn't going to be the best father I want him to. and I knew that me trying to keep the baby from him was the right decision. even though I was wrong I thought I was right. trying to make money for the baby was the hardest I had to get a job. you being so young that was so hard. I had to make ends meet with a babysitting job. I made $600 a week babysitting four little girls in Pontiac. While watching the girls I also had to watch my little brothers. I had to cook for them clean for them it was like I was a mother for all of them. and I had to look after my newborn girl. even though every day I wanted to say I quit and I wanted to just leave my brothers on the road I couldn't cuz every one of them dependent on me and I needed the money. after a while my mom started ditching me she left me with my brothers and didn't even pay bills on time. Matter of fact she didn't pay bills at all. I had to use my $600 that I'm a weekly to save and pay bills buy food for the house diapers clothes for the boys and pay for things they need it for school. I was a full time mother. the same year my older brother went to college so he did not take care of us he didn't even write us. the only time I did hear from him was when he needed money for college fees and of course my momma couldn't afford it so I will pay for them too. at the end of the month I didn't have money for nothing for myself. the only thing I could do was wait until every second month and buy me new clothes and shoes. as serenity got older and turned one I got a job at Krogers to backup the babysitting. Serenity acted just like km and even looked like him. Her first birthday he did come and he brought her gifts. he brought her the most beautiful clothes and the biggest toy car. the bad thing is she didn't know that was her dad I had to tell her. he slept over that night and they got to bond the whole day after. That night me and km ended up having sexual experiences. The next day he started calling me baby again and I had to let him know we did not go out. He got mad and start saying how can I do this and start saying that you know we should be together for the sake of serenity. The next day he left and after that it was a while before I got a text from him. On Easter I text km and tell him that he needs to see her and that she needs to meet his parents which is her grandma and grandpa she needs to know that side of her family. I text him and told him that she misses him and I will love it if you would come around more and not once every Gray moon. He text back and said he was sorry and that he would try after that he came over every weekend spent the night. she seen all the struggles I went through trying to take care of baby girl and my brothers he promised to help. after that he started to stay every weekday and weekend. basically he lived with us. he moved his stuff in one at a time. The boys started to call me Mom and I had to tell them not to. but of course they didn't listen because I was only mom they had. They even call km there dad and he just went along with it.