Why Must I Please You? [BL]

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私の心が痛いです

My Heart Hurts

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Chapter 1

The nightmare lasted longer than he expected, the traces, the touches were still there-, but he didn't think he would have gotten a few too many memories, they weren't his, he refused to believe that boy was him-, he- the boy in the memories was like a doll.

He was Shesmu De Alger Obelia, he was the first prince to the throne.

He couldn't breathe-, till his eyes locked on a low ranking maid working in the dark of the garden, in plain sight his window was left open by himself, and the cold air blew the curtains enough for him to see her.

'Killing her would distract him, his kadupul's could use the fertilizer'.

Yes, he was just hungry, and he would eat then maybe this sickening feeling would go away-, with a dull look in his jeweled eyes as he stumbled to pick himself up, he had to clean himself, had to scrub the feeling of hands away-.

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Walking in a daze to his bathing room, where was it? The cold breeze of spring crashing into him causing him to shiver, he had forgotten his slippers and the cold floor already chilled him.

His teeth chattering behind blue lips that were in what seemed to be the shape of a smile, Shesmu pulled open the door with its silver handle, rushing in not daring to look up for the bathroom was filled with mirrors.

Steeping on tile to the bath, and filling it with the flowers and oils meant to calm the senses. Discarding his clothes onto the floor, the cold froze him even more his body refusing to move as he saw another's reflection instead of his own in the water.

"Ahhh!!!"

A scream could be heard, but all the maids merely flinched before hastily hurrying up in their duties, and scurrying off to their dorms they all knew better than to go out when they heard a scream.

By time the hot water was ready he couldn't hear anything but a buzzing sound that would put the most annoying bees to shame.

Climbing into the bath he collapsed, the boiling water relaxing him as soon as he fully emerged himself in, laying there as he zoned out his mind somewhere else, before his eyes closed.

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Waking up to the warmth of sunlight while he lies in a cold bath, the voice of a man he heard made him question whether he was still asleep, it was an unspoken rule that knights weren't allowed in the amethyst palace, as it most commonly housed illegitimate princesses who's only future would be a political marriage for benefits, this rule came to make sure they stayed pure. 

Men not of royal blood were forbidden entrance unless permission was granted by the Emperor, so Shesmu whilst being a prince only had female servants.

Safe to say Shesmu was confused as he climbed out of bed, preparing for company as standard etiquette required.

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Staring at the red-haired knight in front of him, Felix Robane the knight of crimson blood, his mind supplied. He internally questioned what His Majesty, the Emperor wanted with him to send his right-hand man, to him an abandoned royal child.

Focusing back on the man, he could see him sweating and as it wasn't hot out, he could safely say Sir Robane was nervous.

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Author's Note:

Poor bby Felix, he doesn't know what to do in front of Shesmu, and is nervous because he's only been with Athanasia who acts like a real child. +His battle instincts are acting up cuz Shesmu is a cannibal.

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