𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐉 𝐓𝐎 𝐌𝐘 𝐓 || 𝐓-𝐁𝐎𝐙

~𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐱~

August 13th, 1992

My favorite day of the week. Saturday.
After my talk with B, I finally was brought back to reality. Man, this industry can make you or break you.

I woke up to the smell of breakfast. My man is cooking us breakfast. Aw! One thing you need to keep in mind about getting a man, make sure his ass can cook.

I walked downstairs to the kitchen. When I tell you I am lucky, I'm lucky. He didn't have no shirt on with grey sweats on. Whew, this one reason why I'm having his kid. Thank you Jesus for blessing me with this man. I don't even know why I cheated on him in the first place.

I snuck up behind while he was fixing our plates

"Mmh hey sexy." I said, touching his abs.

"Wassup ma." He said, turning around.
I was leaning in for a kiss, but he stopped me.

"What you doing?" I said

"You didn't brush your teeth Jay." He said, laughing

"And you did?" I said, confused

"Yes baby I did. See, smell." He said, As he blew his breath in my face. It smelled minty.

"You got up before me?" I said, playfully hitting him.

"Yea." He said, laughing

"What'cha cooking?" I said as I flipped my hair to the side.

"Just some omelets, bacon, sausage, eggs, and your favorite... pancakes."

He knows that I love me some pancakes. This man knows everything about me.

"Aww my favorite." I said, smiling at him.

We got our plates and sat down in the dining room and started eating.

"Soo," he started. "I was thinking today if we can go out. Like have a nice dinner or something."

"Oh wow. I would love to J. Where we going?" I asked.

"That's for me to know, and you to find out." He said, laughing

"Ok smart ass." I said, playfully rolling eyes.

we finished our food and he washed our plates.

"Baby, you know I'm almost 2 months." I said excitedly as I rubbed my stomach.

"I know! You growing babe." He said as she placed his hand on my stomach.

He started looking nervous all of a sudden.

"Hey." I placed my hand on his shoulder. "What's wrong?" I said.

"Oh.. nothing baby. I'm fine." He said, slightly smiling

I know that look. He's not fine. I think he's nervous about the baby.

"Baby. You're not fine. What's really wrong?" He said

He paused. Then he spoke

"I-I'm just nervous about being a father. I never signed up for this. To be a father at 23 years old. But I'm not saying it was a mistake. But.. it just wasn't planned. I love this baby and you more than anything in this world. But.. I feel like I'm not ready." He confessed.

Didn't sign up for this? What the fuck does he mean? He wasn't saying all of this when he stuck his penis inside of me and fucked me. If he felt that way... he should've just pulled out.