Technoblade oneshots

I want to tell him I understand

Summary:

Techno sneaks of of his house and wanders over to the forest behind the house and finds Wilbur outside as well. 

This basically the same AU as unlikely friends.

Angst at the beginning with fluff at the end.

!swear and angst warning! 

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Techno groaned slightly as he slid out from Jack and Erets grasp, he placed his feet on the ground as he stood up stretching and rubbing his arms. Techno took a step towards the closet and pulled out a new sweater and some sweat pants, he scurried off to the bathroom and quickly changed his clothes, throwing his old ones into a small basket in the corner of the room. 

The pink haired male then walked over to one of the big windows in the room, he slower pushed it open, smiling at the breeze. It was about two in the morning so everything was dark. Once the window was open wide enough, Techno quietly climbed up onto the sill then swung his legs outside the window, he took a deep breath and shut his eyes before he let go of the window and dropped down.

He landed on his knees and hands with a thud, breathing rigid he wobbles a slight bit as he stands, swiping a hand, he pushes strawberry coloured strands out of his face. Walking forward he makes his way over to the dark looming forest.

Techno was often one to have nightmares, his past haunts him even when nothing triggers it, he lives with constant anxiety, constant pain, fear of the unknown or the past catching up to him. Techno never understood the concept of love even in the platonic sense, he never understood what it was like to have someone truly care about him, never understood what it was like being hugged by a parent, or stargazing with a loved one, in his eyes love was weakness so he didn't show it he didn't feel it, most people just got used to his actions, they just ignored the obvious damage to his heart, they just ignored him in general.  After moving into the house he started to notice he loved the people here, his walls had cracked and he didn't know what to do with these feelings, no one taught him, he didn't understand and he probably would never understand, so he started to suppress these feelings of love and envy, they never mattered so why would they matter no. He was Technoblade, he was a fighter, a warrior and a protector and when his emotions get in the way he can't truly be Technoblade anymore, or at least thats what he thought. In his eyes he was only a weapon, a tool, the Blade, and once a tool becomes unable to do its job its discarded of, so he made the decision to discard of these feeling and if that didn't work he would discard of the tool entirely.

Techno hummed as he walked through the forest, he leaned against a tree and huffed, he was in his own world, a world filled with hatred and sadness. He was pulled from his thoughts when he heard someone call out his name.

"Techno, are you alright..?" The pink haired man looked up only to be eye to eye with Wilbur.

"What are you doing up this late, Wilbur?"

"Hey, i asked a question first."

"Meh, mine is more important."

"You know thats not true, but if I must answer I was getting water from the kitchen and i saw you from the back door."

Techno only sighed as a response. "I'm alright Wilbur, I'm just stressed as of late."

"Oh Techno, I know your not. The others might not see it but i do, i saw all the meals and social activities you skipped out on i saw you standing alone, i saw you crying when you thought no one was looking, i saw all of it, so please let me help.." 

Techno slumped on the tree, sliding down into a sitting position, digging for face into his knee.

"I don't understand Wilbur.." The brown haired man knelt in front of the smaller, wrapping arms around him, Wilbur then whispered. "What don't you understand.?"

"Wilbur, why am i always alone, why does no one love me..?" Wilbur then hugged him tighter, as Techno continued 

"This need to be loved, i don't understand, I'm supposed a fighter, a bad guy. It doesn't make sense... I don't make sense anymore.." 

"I love you, i love your smile, i love your personality, i love your need to protect everyone. You are so strong Techno, but you have to cut yourself some slack" 

"Cut the crap Wilbur, we both know your saying that out of pity."

"Its not out of pity, its understanding"

"What if I'm just broken." That line broke Wilbur, tears prickle down from his eyes, he pulled Technos head up to face him, he noticed that Techno had tears also running down his cheeks, placing his hands one either side of Technos face, he rubbed his thumbs on Technos cheeks swiping away the tears.

"You are not broken, your healing and your learning, and if you need guidance i will be there at you side, just like brothers, i will always be there, even if I'm talking to the person of my dreams if you need me i will be there."

"Will you teach me how to love..?"

"Of course i will, thats what big brothers are for Techie."

"Thank you, Wilby."

And with that they stood up, walking back to the house.

The next morning Techno, Tommy, Dream and Badboyhalo stood in the kitchen making breakfast, they heard the creaking of floorboards and saw Phil walking into the kitchen. 

"Hey Phil, is Wilbur awake.?" Techno asked, not removing his eyes from the pan of eggs. Phil hummed before answering. "Nah him and Fundy are still asleep."

After most of the household had gathered in the dining room and ate, Fundy came walking down the stairs, as soon as he entered the room Techno spoke. "Is Wilbur awake" Fundy shook his head 'no'

"Blade, why are you so eager to see Wilbur.?!" Tommy yelled across the table. 

"I want to tell him that I understand.."

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Hopefully this makes up for yesterday, anyway this was kinda a vent chapter for me so I'm happy that i got stuff of my chest, i hope there won't be any skipping chapters again.

I hope you enjoyed.

Have a good day or night wherever you are!