HER MISSING PIECE || enemies to lovers

part 1

My name? Oh it's amelia finley but my friends call me ams. You'd like to know more about me? Well, where should I start.. As I said my name is amelia, I am 17 years old, I live with my parents but they're always out of town because of work means I'm most of the time alone. I go to the stoneview high, luckily this damn school isn't that far away from where I live. I still hate it tho.. At least I have Macy (we call her may), Nicolas (we call him nic) and Ricky my three closest friends. It's always fun with them but it doesn't completely distract me from all of my problems. You have to know a few months ago I was in a relationship with this guy called Julien. He treated me like shit. He always told me that I was not skinny enough. Every time we saw a skinny girl he told me "oh Amelia look this girls body is amazing! This is what you should look like!". That's why I stopped eating. It actually helped. I lost weight. But then he broke up with me because he found a girl who's body was way prettier and skinnier than mine. Knowing that the person I loved with my whole heart left me just because of my body, destroyed me. My friends always told me that I am way too skinny but I don't feel like I am. I just don't feel comfortable in my own body and I wanna be skinnier. Thanks to Julien. Afterwards I also found out that he cheated on me a couple of times. Every time he said "sorry ams I have to study." he just went to some girl to fuck her. Don't know why I didn't left him earlier. I guess I loved him too much and didn't realize how much he destroyed me. Thanks to him I cut myself, I starve myself, tell myself a lot of bad things when I look at the mirror, don't get enough sleep and have trust issues. May is actually the only person I really trust, but she doesn't know how fucked up I am. But that's good cause she'd probably force me go to to therapy but hell no, I'm not going there. Anyways I guess that's enough for now. Just read the story and you'll find out more about me and everything. Have fun ;)

monday morning:
I open my eyes to see the sun shining right into my eyes. I don't really feel like standing up, making coffee, making myself ready for school.. wait. SHIT SCHOOL IS ABOUT TO START!!
I jump out of my bed and immediately look at my phone to see 6 missed calls from May, 4 from Ricky and 14 new messages from our group chat (ricky, may, nick and me). I open WhatsApp and read the messages.

golden four ;)
may : ams you there??
             hello?
nic : bet she overslept again lol.
may : amelia school's about to start you can't be late again!
ricky : ams don't you have a freaking alarm clock?!
may : ameliaaa
             alright gonna spam you
             ams
             A M E L I A
nic : may please don't my phone keeps vibrating!
may : okay and how tf is amelia supposed to wake up?!
ricky : how about you go to her house u genius
may : oh that's actually a great idea
ricky : wait I wasn't being serious..
nic : but she took it serious lmao

Don't tell me Macy is on her way to my house..
*ding dong*
Shit how can she be so freaking fast!! When I turn around to look at my room I realize that my room is A MESS!! Well my parents are not there so i have noone to tell me that i should clean my room, the kitchen, living room or the whole house.

"ams open the door!" shouts Macy through the door.
Oh I almost forgot about her. I run to the door, open it and see an exhausted may. "ams! yo-you're gonna be late for school" says may almost passing out.

She scans my house and her eyes widen at the sight.
"jesus ams how long haven't you cleaned up here? Even my grandmothers house is tidier and you know how messy she is" says may. She's right. Her grandmother is the messiest person on earth.
I look around my house realizing how messy it is. Maybe I should really clean my house but I don't feel the need.

"Okay anyways go get ready hurry!" She pulls me out of my thoughts and I make my way to my bedroom. I scan my closet till I see gray baggy jeans, a white tee and a brown hoodie. I don't really care what I'm wearing, main thing is I'm wearing something. I grab my things and go to the bedroom.

When I locked the door I turned around and took off my sleeping clothes. I look at my mirror. Her again. The brown haired, fat (but actually skinny), fucked up girl. My fingers trace along my belly. God. I just don't feel comfortable. Tears starting to form in my eyes. No, don't cry. Stop being so weak. I wipe my tears away and look at my face. My eye bags are dark, my eyes are red and my hair is messy.

I turn on the faucet and wash my face. I turn my head to the right side. My sight stops at the small, shiny blade. The urge is so strong I can barely stand it. I was just about to grab it when macy calls me again. She tells me to hurry up and so I do. I put on my baggy clothes to hide my body and scars. "did you eat something yet?" asks may when I come out of the bathroom. "Yes I did." Of course I lied.

I'm scanning the room to see it's cleaned. She cleaned the house. In this short time? Wow. Does this girl have superpowers or something? I look at her and she smiles at me widely. "You don't have to thank me" she says but I thanked her anyways. She points to the clock to tell me that we have to hurry. I put on my black converse and we walk out of the house.

On the way to school we talked about our plans for the weekend and everything. May asked if I wanted to go to cambells party on Friday with her. Cambell was my elementary school crush. I was so in love with him back then but I really don't understand why. He's an asshole. A good looking one. Wait no.

I don't really know if I wanna go to his party because I really can't stand him and I don't really like drinking alcohol. My dad was an alcoholic. Don't want anything bad to happen. I told her that I have to think about it.

When we walked into school we bumped into our friends. Nic and Ricky. "Look who finally decided to join us. You look like you just fell out of bed." Ricky said. Ricky is a difficult person. She's mean most of the time but that's just how she is. She also is kind of a slut. Every weekend she goes to parties and makes out with some dudes. That's Ricky, but we love her.

The four of us started laughing when a small group of three boys walked past us. I recognized a tall, dark haired person. The person stared right into my eyes with no expression on his face. He walked past us and we still kept the eye contact. God, I can't explain how much I hate Cambell.

May pulls me out of my thoughts by grabbing my hand and pulling me into our classroom because the first lesson was about to start. I sit down on my seat. My seat is next to nic. It's always fun with him but today I don't really feel like fun. I just placed my head on the table and slowly fell asleep.

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