Band- It College Years

Holding the peices together

A kiss was pressed to my temple. I groaned. Hands touched my bare chest. I slapped at them. There was a soft giggle. I peeked out of one eye. "When do you giggle?" I asked tiredly.
"When my boyfriend is too fucking cute." Levi leaned down to kiss me again. I caught him, ready to roll him into me.
"COFFEE!" He screamed. I let him go. He had a cup in his free hand.
"Come on, I made crepes and bacon." He held the coffee out to me. "You're first session with Hange is today." He reminded me.
"Levi?" I asked. He drew in a deep breath. "His name was Furlan Church. We were just teenagers." He shook his head and walked from the room. I sipped the coffee. Getting up I pulled a pair of clean boxers from my drawer. I took my coffee to the table.
"Is there anything I shouldn't tell her?" I asked. Levi set the plate down before me. He ruffled my hair, kissing the top of my head.
"There's lots I wish she didn't know, but you need to talk to someone. You need to heal. Hange is really great at keeping secrets." He pressed his hip into my shoulder. I wound my arm around his waist. "My wish is only because of my own desire to keep my secrets. It's how I managed to live my life thus far. But no, Eren. Tell her anything you feel like." He kissed me again as he cut a bite from the crepe and stuffed it in my mouth.
"Tell her every last detail of our sex life, I don't care. She's loyal, that I promise you." He smiled down at me. I nodded. He sat beside me as I ate. I went to shower and get dressed. Since dating Levi, and due to the events of that night, I found I showered a whole lot more. Dressed in a band t shirt, ripped skinny jeans and converse, I flipped through my closet to find a hoodie. I liked them big, so could never wear Levi's. I found a green one in the back that I hardly ever wore. It was something mom got me while Levi was MIA. I slipped it on. Walking out, Levi heard me.
"What would you like for din..." He looked up at me. His mouth falling open.
"What?" I asked feeling anxious that I did something wrong.
"You're fucking hot." He whispered. "That hoodie brings out the green in your eyes. Damn!" he shook his head. I smiled reaching him. I pulled him up to his tippy toes to get my proper good morning kiss. We went to the shop. Hange was waiting in the doorway. Mobit was sitting in the car.
Once he saw us arrive, he waved and drove away. "He just wanted to make sure it was the tight place." She muttered. I unlocked the door. Turning to Levi, I felt the familiar pain in my chest. The wings of butterflies in my stomach. I was sure I was going to vomit.
"Eren, I haven't even left yet!" Levi buried his head in my neck. "Come on, I'll walk you up, ok?" I nodded. We went up the stairs. I missed the look between them.
"Alright, this is as far as I go. Now, I will be across the street. Erwin and I are just having breakfast. Call wave something out the window, do not jump out it!" He warned. "To get my attention, I will be right back here, ok." I nodded. We kissed and he walked back down the stairs.
"Breathe, Eren. Slowly in and out." Hange took my hand. I did as she commanded. When I was able to breath on my own, Levi was gone. I opened the door to go into the sort of small office. It was ten by five feet. A desk sat in front of a line of book shelves. There was a couch under the window and a round table with four chairs in the far corner from the desk. Beside the book shelves was a door that led to half a bathroom Two easy chairs faced the desk.
"Do I need to lie down?" I asked trying to joke. She smiled.
"No, do what you feel comfortable with. If it's OK, I would like to record our conversations, so that I can take notes later. I will leave them locked up here in the safe, Levi provided me with." She assured me, I nodded. She took out two tape recorders. Placing one on the desk and one on the table. She hit record on both as she explained she had noted I liked to pace. "It's just so I get all the sound." She explained. I nodded.
"Where do you feel safe starting?" she asked. I flinched. Turning I walked to the window. I knew, in part it was to put as much space between us as possible. Also it was to see if Levi was watching. He was. I smiled when I saw him glance up. He waved. I waved, then shut the curtains. I remained standing there.
"I took the first load out to the trailer." I began. "This guy was smoking, I didn't think anything of it. He spoke to me as I went back inside for another load.
'Kid, you were amazing on those drums. Tommy Lee talent right there.' Kenny said tapping my bicep. I laughed.
"Ha, thanks." I chuckled as I went inside. I grabbed my short and put it on. Taking the last of my rack out. The man had moved closer to the trailer.
"Huge fan." He beamed at me. "Been watching you awhile, Eren." He coughed. I winced it sounded painful. "Yeah, stupid things are killing me." He had another cigarette in his hand.
"Ever think to quit?" I joked.
"Thought about it, but it's too late now." He told me blowing smoke up into the sky. I nodded. I made two more trips getting the rest of my kit loaded up. I always loaded my kit first. Then the sound gear, then the mics and guitars. The man hadn't been out there for the last two trips. I didn't care, figured he had went home. I stored my bass drum, and cymbals, was just getting ready to turn when I heard his voice again.
"So you're the one who has kept my nephew from his job." His hand smashed into my neck. I couldn't move. I saw stars and then it was dark. I think I came too a bit on the drive. I heard him say "You fucked my kin, boy. Now I'm gonna show you what messing with an Ackerman means." It sent a shiver through my spine. But the head trauma put me under again.
"When I woke once more, It was dark, pitch black. At first I thought I hadn't opened my eyes. I tired to move but my arms were tied down." I swallowed moving around the room I plopped onto the couch. Resting my head on the back of it. "A lighter flared in the darkness. That's when I saw the man again."
"You know who I am, right?" I mimicked that voice. Hange shivered. "I recall every word he said." Darkly I laughed. "Odd because I don't know all that I said back. I know I tried to sound brave and cocky." I put my arm over my eyes.
"He kicked me. All I could see was the fucking glow of that cigarette." I couldn't take the darkness behind my eyes. Jumping up I paced to the desk.
"He went on to tell me about Levi, how he taught him to kill. He sounded proud of it." I gaged rushing to the joining bathroom to throw up. When I returned Iwent on.
"I was on the floor, watching that lit tip bobbing as he went on about finding Levi, how he had a whore for a mother how he was a better parent to him." I wrapped my arms around myself as I leaned against the desk.
"If I talked back he hit me, kicked me. I never saw it coming." I drank some water. "Then he turned on these construction lights and I knew I was fucked. I had no idea where I was. Some warehouse."
"He described how Levi killed a man for five dollars to buy tea with." I shivered again. "He had been so proud of him, for killing." I was crying although I didn't realize it. "He was dancing as he acted it out." I wiped at my face.
"He called Levi, his boy. Then kicked me in the nuts." I moved to peek out the curtain again. Seeing Levi at the restaurant, laughing with his friend eased some of my pain.
"He hit my head into the floor. He cut my legs free, but sat on them. Talking about how my cock pleased his nephew." I was rocking myself for comfort.
"He told me how he left Levi a calling card. Said the little runt knew where he was." I turned to look at Hange. "So, why didn't he come, before, before..." my voice cracked and was lost to gut wrenching sobs.
"He carved his name into my chest, while I was awake." I turned away, I couldn't look at anything but the stark walls.
"He sucked my dick until it was hard. He liked it. Then cut my dick with the k, k, knife."
"You fuck my family boy, this is what you get. Your sweet little bitch ass will not take my blood from me!" I copied the mans voice so perfectly it made Hange shiver in fear.
"He shoved the knife handle up my ass, dry. Forced it in and out of me for awhile. Laughing asking me if Levi liked how I screamed."
"I told Levi, Kenny left then, but he didn't." I shook with the words I had never spoken out loud to anyone. The images my nightmares took because I never allowed myself to focus on what truly happened next.
"He took his dick out. Pressed me into the floor." I was coughing and gaging as I tried to get the words out through my tighten throat. "He, K, K, Kenny rapped me. He f, forced his dick in after the knife. He didn't just use the hand, but cut me open with the blade. S, s, said the blood worked as lube. He laughed as he fucked me. He laid on top of me and went so hard and fast, my throat was bleeding from screaming with the pain of him. I couldn't breathe as he held me down, pushing my face in the dirt." I had to stop talking as I couldn't say anything through the tears. Hange sat in the chair just watching me cry like a baby.
"Tell me what happened then, Eren." She pressed softly.
"He c, c, came inside me." I cried. "Twice. He raped me twice before..." I had to stop again. Rushing into the bathroom I dry heaved over the toilet shaking and crying. It took a long time, Hange came to me then. She rushed in to wrap her arms around my chest. She laid her head against my quaking back.
"Oh Eren, poor boy." She stroked my hair as she hugged me. When I sat up, she pulled me into her lap. I wrapped my arms around her waist crying into her shoulder.
"He shoved something sharp and painful into my ass. It was connected to the words he tied me up with. All the while I was begging Levi to come save me, but he didn't. If he knew where I was, why didn't he come sooner?" I cried my arms painfully tight around the woman.
"He hoisted me up on that cross. I was in so much pain. Everything hurt. My chest, my arms, my back, my ass. My only thought was at least my friends were safe. I would d, die and be just a mem, memory for them. They would get to live. Levi left me to die on that cross!" I wailed out. Hange was crying with me.
Since they were huddled in the bathroom, neither knew the hour had been up. Levi stood shaking in fury as he listened to Eren's words. His hopelessness welling up inside him. If he hadn't killed Kenny already, he would have gladly done it again, right then. He knew he couldn't comfort Eren right now.
Storming outside he began to demolish the broken, rotted fence that separated his shop from an overgrown parking lot. Heaving heavy boulder, he throw them as he screamed out his anger. Strong arms wrapped around him, a heavy wait landed on his back.
"LEVI, THERE ARE CHILDREN HERE!" Erwin bellowed in his ear. Levi slumped to the ground, crying he pounded his fists into the dirt and gravel beneath him.
"As we were planning, he thought I left him to die!" he screamed at Erwin.
"But, you didn't." Soft hands took ahold of Levi's damaged ones. "You came for me." Eren whispered. "You saved what was left." He pulled the hurt bleeding hands to his lips, kissing each wound."
"Now you need to save each other." Erwin whispered as he released the teen to his boyfriends care. They went back to the shop to clean and bandage Levi's hands.