One Step At A Time

Movie Night

"I can't believe you dropped such a big spoiler." Tae says, munching on the last of the popcorn. They didn't often watch tv in bed but after a long walk today they decided to have their movie night in the comfort of their bed.

Jungkook giggles, his nose scrunches and his eyes wrinkle at the edges. "Everyone knows how Titanic ends."

Tae feels his heart swell and his insides swoop like seagulls catching fish from the sea. "How did you know that I knew, though? I might not have known?"

"We've watched it before and it's a pretty famous event."

"That doesn't mean that I knew. I might've forgotten?"

Jungkook giggles again, "You are so funny."

Tae puts down the popcorn bucket and turns on his side to face Jungkook, he looks into the eyes of the man he adores and cherishes. His beautifully wide, innocent brown eyes look right back at him and in the eight years they've been together, he's never felt any different. "I did put GSOH on my dating profile."

"Tae, stop it, we did not meet online."

"How do you know?"

"Because you told me that you harassed me at an interview and then my Mother confirmed it."

Tae chuckles and kisses the tip of his husband's nose, "I did not harass you and that was not what I told you."

"You were so bowled over by how gorgeous I was that you asked me to get lunch with you."

Tae's expression turns serious and he smooths his hand upwards from his husband's back to his nape where his fingers play with the ebony strands. "Exactly... and I am still bowled over by how gorgeous you are."

Jungkook's shyness makes an appearance as his cheeks heat and he looks down into the space between them before looking up and meeting his husband's gaze.

It's Tae who makes the move this time, connecting their lips and closing his eyes as soon as he sees Jungkook's eyelids shut. His fingers twiddle the strands of hair between them as he guides his tongue past his husband's teeth. He exhales when Jungkook pulls himself closer and he hears the quietest murmur from his throat. Tae angles his head and pushes into the kiss, it's deep and languid and reciprocated as Jungkook pushes into it, too.

With only the thin cotton fabric of their underwear covering their crotches, their arousal becomes obvious pretty quickly. Tae pulls back and searches Jungkook's eyes but isn't quite sure what it is that he is looking for. Permission, perhaps? A sign that he wants this as much as Tae does? He doesn't know.

It's now that the contrast between body and mind becomes glaringly obvious. When natural instinct is hampered by thoughts of failure and disappointment. Jungkook's chest heaves with apprehension but he does want this, if he's reading the signs correctly, that is.

"Tae... I don't know what I'm doing... I... it's... it's been so long."

Tae smiles, "I feel similar... I'm scared of hurting you... I'm scared that I'm rushing you."

"You won't hurt me but I don't know what I can and can't do until we try. I actually don't know how sex used to be between us so I'm scared of disappointing you."

"You could never disappoint me... I just want to be connected to you in the most intimate way."

"We could try? Take it step by step? I want to try."

"We'll take it slowly... erm... Jungkook?"

"Yeah?"

"You will tell me if I hurt you or if something is wrong won't you?"