Why Did I Fall In Love!? (Boy x Boy Ship)

Epilogue

My name is Gou. I'm from Vermilion City in the Kanto Region. My goal and dream is to find every single Pokémon and to find the mystical Pokémon, Mew. I've been travelling with Ash. He's a boy from Pallet Town, also in the Kanto Region. Through strange and wonderful events, our paths crossed and we've been travelling together ever since. At first, as you might expect, we didn't exactly get off to the best start. However, we somehow broke through to each other. The event with the Bulbasaur and getting to meet Lugia, it really showed me how special Ash was. He's not an ordinary Trainer. He's...well, special. In a whole bunch of ways (laughs to himself). Anyway, we've become very close quite quickly. We do everything together. Eat, sleep, work, play, train. We've become quite an unstoppable team and I care a lot about him. I see him as my best friend.

But... A while back, I discovered something about myself. Something I never expected. I realised that... I'm not attracted to girls. I've never really shown an interest in girls but I had always assumed that it was because I was not interested in relationships as I had been concentrating on my research. That's been the most important thing to me for as long as I could remember. However, since meeting Ash, something changed. My ultimate goal was still to find Mew, but something that I saw as a terrible complication was the realisation that I was in love with Ash.

I didn't know how it happened. I don't understand how it all works. I didn't fully understand my own feelings. But... I didn't want those feelings to happen. I really didn't want those feelings to happen. I wanted those feelings to disappear. I wanted those feelings to be erased from my memory. I cursed that this supposed awful thing had happened to me.

"Why!? Why did this have to happen to me!?" Why must my life be torcherous!? Why did I fall in love with him, when I know I can't have him!? I can't have him that way." - Those were the kinds of things I'd say to myself.

Him and I... it was something that I thought could never be. I didn't even know what I wanted and I didn't want to risk ruining everything. I was scared that he'd think I was a freak. That he'd leave me, and I'd be alone. I couldn't. I had to suppress my feelings. No one could know about them. No one could know my secret. Especially him.

It was an awful experience, but one that had to happen. It was needed in order to learn more about myself, and to understand how I felt.

This experience has taught me a lot and I think it was for the best that it happened this way.

My name is Gou. I'm from Vermilion City in the Kanto Region. My goal and dream is to find every single Pokémon and to find the mystical Pokémon, Mew. And I'm in love with my best friend...

And he's in love with me...

And I couldn't be happier about it...

[The End]