Dangerous - Jason McCann love story/Justin Bieber

5. Love in the past

JASONS POV - FLASHBACK

It was hot outside, the sun was the only thing up in the sky. I covered my head with a blanket and sighed. "I'm melting, it's so hot." My body was on fire. She grabbed my blanket and kissed me. "Then let's move to a cooler place." I could only smile in her presence, she was so wonderful. I was so madly in love with her. I dreamt about being together with her forever, that I one day would settle down, and have a normal life together with her. I promised her, that I'd stop myself from running away one day. "Jason, what happens if we get caught?" She asked, while we drove away. "The good thing is, we don't get caught. And the bad thing is, we could get killed." I tried to keep it cool.

"Let's runaway together, let's find a place deep in the woods. Where we could be alone together...Always." She looked at me, with those begging eyes. "You know we can't do that now...It's too late..And It has been like that for awhile now.."
"Not if we disappear. They can't possibly follow us everywhere? Come on Jason..You need to give it a chance!"
"Give it a chance? Are you crazy? I couldn't possibly live with myself, if something happened to you one day!"
She turned her face to the window. "You have to, I chose this because I love you. I'd sacrifice everything for a life with you. That's just what love does to humans. You can't change that fact Jason. And there's one more thing I need to say, if something ever happens. I'm doing it for you, and it's my own choice. If you ever try to convince then stop, because you can't. I make my own choices, leave, disappear when I want to...And...No..Just forget it." She smiled and kissed my cheek. What was all that about?

I kept my eyes on the road, and drove to the closest hotel I could find. "We can stay put here for awhile.." I lightly squeezed her hand. I just hope they don't find us here. We booked a room, and took some of our stuff with us. She walked in front of me, she was so perfect and petite. I loved everything about her. Every single flaw and perfection. It's the first time I've been in love with someone. And it feels great, but I need to risk a lot too.

"I'm taking a shower, I feel disgusted by myself right now. And instead of going out to eat, or at the lobby. You could do me a favor, and go buy some food at a grocery store? I want to cook for you." She smiled. "You're such a drag sometimes babe...Cooking takes forever. And the grocery store is miles from here.." "Just do it, for me please." She locked the door. I made sure the door was locked tightly before I left, I'd never forgive myself if something happened to her.

When I hit the road and were on the way, I felt quite uneasy. Like something was wrong, or was it only my imagination. There were a lot of black cars driving quite fast, and they were heading for the way where she was. I couldn't take any chances, so I turned around and drove back immediately.
I arrived and ran up to our room, the door was unlocked.

I took my gun and held it tightly as I walked inside. All of her stuff was gone, everything. Even my most valuable stuff were gone, her bags, not even a single thing was left behind besides all my clothes and one note.

"Jason,

By the time you read this, I will be far away from here, long gone, where you can't find me. So don't bother pursuing or trying to find me. You will never be able to contact me or anything again. I made my own decision and left you. You probably noticed them right? They just wanted me to join them, and it's my fault they went after you. The truth is, they thought you were trying to kidnap or keep me for your group so they tried to kill you. But you see, our love was in the way, so I had to put it aside. Discard it completely and forget you. But all my feelings, what we had, my love, our love was all real. For the very first time in my life, I got to know what true love was when I met you, I truly loved you Jason, but I knew it wouldn't last so I tried to make us escape..But I understood why you refused, you wanted to protect me right? But all I have to say is...

I'm sorry Jason.

I love you. "

I went down on my knees and buried my face in my hands. My heart was aching, and I placed my hand over it to lessen it, but It didn't help. All my tears were falling down, I felt completely empty and it hurt a lot. I just wanted to shut everything out and disappear.

I felt betrayed.
I felt sad.
I felt empty.
I felt angry.
I felt stupid.
I felt disappointed.

I promised myself to never love anyone again, to never put me in such a stupid situation. I don't want to love anyone ever, I hate love. I'm shutting everyone out of my life

- BACK TO PRESENT -

But it was like I couldn't keep that promise. Someone was trying to break my wall. She was trying to get into my heart. Did I love her? No, absolutely not. I'm a jerk, rude and cold hearted monster. I don't need love, what kind of stupid thing is that? The only thing I need is money and random sex. But I have stopped with that, since she came into my life..Why is she messing with me? Why is she changing me?.....

Maria, what is she truly to me?