Unbelievably Precious (Sam Tsui Fan Fiction)

Chapter 13 : Please Don't Say You Love Me

Samantha's POV

I said I cant.

I told him I can't be with him.

Remind me again why would I reject a man who clearly cares for me? Who's willing learn to love me despite of my messy past.

Believe me, I do love Sam's presence around me. He make everything I do much more fun and memorable. But, lets face it. He is too good for me and I can mention 5 reason why I don't deserve to be love by someone as amazing as Sam,

1.       My past is one gigantic dark messy chaos. No need to explain.

2.       I'm just one talentless girl while Sam is a a very talented and famous singer

3.       I'm just going to slow his career

4.       I was a grumpy person while Sam was a cheery type

5.       I still lose my faith in love

Well that's 5, I have more but those five already hit me in the face. Make me realize that I should stop Sam to fight for me because clearly he can find someone better, much much more better than me. If only I could be selfish and keep him for myself, I do that. But I can't. Sam deserve every happiness in life, and if he's with me, he will be unhappy, and I don't want that happen to him.

I have to figure out how to make Sam realize that I'm not worth fighting for, eventhough I'll be the one getting hurt, I'll do it for him because I care about him and I want him to be happy.

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One week.

One week since the last time I saw him. One week since the last time I spoke to him. One week since I saw his smile. One week since I reject him. One week since I realize how stupid I am for rejecting him. One week since I made a promise to myself to make Sam realize I'm not worth fighting for-before whatever feelings we have for each other stop growing.

 But, I can't deny that I miss him, every single day. I don't know if he's giving me a silent treatment or he finally decide to walk out from my life forever.

Seems like I'm not the only one who misses him. Carrie too. She won't stop asking where Sam is. She pleaded for me to call Sam, but I can't. We both know we need time for ourself.

At least that's what I thought until Sam showed up on my door looking handsome as ever. A smile apearred on his lips and the next thing I know he wrapped his hands around my body but I didn't hug him back.

" Don't act like you didn't miss me because I know you do." He whispered in my ear. I break the hug and try to act like I don't care.

" No I don't"

Liar

" Are you sure?" he asked and I nodded, " well there's only one thing I could do." He took my arms and pull me towards him. He planted a kiss on my forehead as his arms wrap my waist. We stayed like that for a couple minutes and honestly I love the feeling I felt when I'm around him, until guilt kick me and my head tell me that this is not what I should do.

I pushed myself farther from him and I watch as his expression changed like he knew I'm up to something.

" You know what Samantha? I thought by I'm backing off for a week you'd clear your mind and we would be back to good terms, but I think I was wrong. Why wouldn't you give me a chance to make us work? Why?" he asked

" You know exactly why I did this." I said while trying to hold back the tears that threatened to fall from my eyes.

" And how many times do I have to tell you that I don't care about your messy past. I love you, every part of you. Why can't you believe that? And don't give me 'You deserve someone better' as your reason. Because I knew a girl who's right for me when I saw one. and I already find her." He didn't just say those words.