16.12.21
I always believed that maybe,
Maybe, it could've gone right.
Maybe, I didn't have to lose him.
Maybe, we could've been happy.
Then shit like this happens
Reminding me that I'm powerless.
That I have no control,
That even if I tired,
It wouldn't have worked.
I gave up,
Because I've always known,
That I'm a pawn in a game I can't win.
There's nothing here for me,
But I can't break free.
I can't ever leave.
All that's keeping me going is a dream,
A hope.
Hope that I'll be free.
Dreams where I'm happy,
But all this is something I'll never touch.
It's shit like this,
That reminds me I'm alone.
There's no one I can ever talk to about this,
Because even if I could,
Nothing would happen.
Nothing would change.
The world doesn't feel real anymore.
I'm living in this middle
Of old dreams and reality.
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6. The Ongoing Battle In My Mind
PoetryNothing good ever stays, no matter how much you wish for it. When you think that the cycle's ended, it's only just restarted. Maybe this is just how it is, but I've forgotten how to cope. I've forgotten how it feels to be back here. I've forgotten...
