you're smile is my strength and peace - (seasion 2)

episode 102 - it's difficult to live without you

Swara come back from office she get freshen up and come down see naina is playing in hall with kuhu and kiara and ragya is in her cradle then no one is in hall. She touch her belly looking toward ragya it's not like that she don't care about her baby she do care but the time sanskar has left her side she became emotionless and stone hearted and she only become deaf to hear anyone because the time when she badly needed her sanskar he wasn't there with her and this thought only make her more angry and frustrated he just go leaving her side and now when she was waiting for him to wake up and say don't cry i am near you only this also not even happening how much days and month passing her heart is loosing all the hope till now which she was having doctor's leave all the hope that now she can again feel sanskar and if he wake up also then his one side will be paralyzed because of this much days staying at coma and when sanskar woke up and look himself in this state he will die daily getting torment for her which she will not able to see. SWARa come in sense feeling tap on her shoulder she look up see tanuja who forward milk glass toward her swara take it slowly from her then look down tanuja seat beside swara looking toward her
Tanuja - sometimes it's good that we should open our heart out infront of someone where we find our solace shona because sometimes keeping all the secrets inside our heart make us lead toward depression which is harmful for baby's life
Swara - hmm there is nothing to open infront of anyone Di my life become open book to read for everyone so what can i share with anyone
Tanuja - you know very well that you can't lie with me even if you try that shona because i know you  better than you know yourself baccha How many days your gonna punish yourself and your baby tell me
Swara - i am not punishing my baby why will i punish my baby when my baby hasn't done anything
Tanuja - so this you understand very well shona then why you're neglecting you are health because it's affecting your baby too not even you and what happened at today morning why you're taking it lightly it can be dangerous for your Both's health
Swara - i don't know what i am doing and what not but i know only one thing that i can't even understand what you're God had exactly doing with my life because he done all the mishap in my life so badly
Tanuja - shona God hasn't done this baby your unnecessarily blaming God he is taking your test if you will start behaving like this then don't you think he will ever make everything fine in your life keep faith on him baby trust me everything will be fine
Swara - it's two months 16 days 35 hours 45 second that nothing get changed everything is as it is. So how to keep faith on this tell me that
Tanuja - the more you behave like this the more god will keep taking our test shona you're just making it more worse nothing else by neglecting about your baby and tell me one thing the day sanskar will wake up and he will come to know that you ignored his baby just because of him will he able to hold himself
Swara - but even i can't hold myself seeing him like this Di why no one understanding i can't see this all its hurting alot i am unble to understand anything what to do and what not
Tanuja - if you don't want to keep faith on our God the god then please keep faith on your love shona because everything can lost but the faith of on our love can't loose easily because love is very strong emotions
Swara - i don't know about this all the moment sanskar will wake up also i don't know how i will behave because this time everything goes into my nerves and now nothing can change i don't know sanskar will wake or not or he will stay life time like this
Tanuja - you're thinking like this from now only shona then what can we do because you're thinking get negative so what more we have to do for making you understand
Swara - i really don't know about anything di now i can't even understand how much more i need to understand about this thing
Tanuja - you're unnecessarily taking tension shona because it's not good for you keep belief on others beliefs not on yours when you are blank about this like this way
Swara - hmm i don't know but let's see now what more will happened or not (look toward naina) where is others di babies are playing alone at hall where everyone is busy
Tanuja - ragini go to market she having some work so laksh take her to market and khushi go with them about Maya and Rudra they both go to there respective works Rudra having concert that's why he gone early morning only and Maya Having some important meetings so RUDRA drop her at her office then he go to his studio you know about ARNAV bhai and rishi Manik Druv Kabir abhimanyu Arjun and karan also go to office with them nandini mukti Navya aalia kia and janvi go to Kia's home for meeting her mom and dad so no one is in home except me because i need to look after babies (swara nods in yes hearing tanuja)
Swara - where is Natasha next week her semester gonna start na (tanuja nods in yes) then how is her study going on
Tanuja - you know about her shona in study she is gone whole on you due to study she forget having her dinner lunch and breakfast too you didn't left anything left to make her like you now in stubborness also she is full on you only and moreover she is taking tension about her study that too when she is in just at her 9th grade
Swara - she must be preparing for 10th from now only (naina look toward swara then she go upstairs at swasan's room tanuja and Swara who was busy in talking with each other didn't notice her going toward upstair SWARa look toward ragya who start crying tanuja was about to take her) let me take her didima (tanuja take ragya from cradle and give to swara)
Tanuja - you play with her shona i will bring her milk after boiling it OK (swara nods in yes tanuja go from there swara look toward ragya who was looking toward her only with her big doe eyes blinking it several times making swara smile seeing ragya)
Swara  - you know you look just like Ragini di baby girl do you know who am i to you i know you don't know about this right so let me tell you about myself baby i am your masi and chachi too but how come we both can be friends when you don't even know about me okey leave about this tell me one thing you're happy na getting best mumma papa (think about shourvari and parth just then tanuja come give milk bottle to swara who give it to baby who start drinking it) di (Tanuja look toward swara) i am thinking to go at bhanushali house and stay there for somedays to make my mind fresh from all the things happening too
Tanuja - if you want to go then you can go shona there is nothing to worry about this but do you really want go stay away from sanskarr
Swara - what's the matter about this Di he is here with you all and i know he is safe the things effeccted me is that seeing him lying on bed like this it's affecting me alot so i can't see him like this rather than that i know he is fine and safe here with you all the more i will stay closer to him the more my mind will get disheartened so it's better i go to mumma and Dad and stay with them for some days
Tanuja - when you want to go shona there (swara look toward tanuja hearing her sign heavily)
SWARa - hmm i think i should go today only in sometimes later because now this home also suffocating me in memories of his i can't hurt my baby more in this all i need to change my environment as soon as possible it will be good for me and my baby
Tanuja - okey i will call shivin he will come to pick up you here to take you at home okey (swara nods in yes look toward ragya who was playing with her open hairs with her small small baby hands swara look toward ragya peck her forehead and lips softly ragya giggle cutely making swara smile faintly she kiss on her chubby cheeks lovingly tanuja go to call shivin call him at maheswari mansion then come at hall look toward swara Who was making ragya sleep in her arms) did you want me to call your rockstar home and tell this shona
SWARa - no didima don't call him from some days his and mine equation isn't good i am troubling him alot when i will behave how he want he will get happy from somedays i am only making him angry and frustrated over me which he really don't want and how much i am trying i am unble to come out from all the thoughts which is roaming around my mind everything is happening very bad so let him stay relax for somedays and even Aranv Bhai too he is also in stress from somedays just because of me so just don't tell them about my going at bhanushali house from now only tell everyone when they come back at home i will come after packing my stuff Shivin Bhai must come in sometimes (look toward ragya who already sleep in her Arm swara place her gently on her cradle placing placing small and soft peck on her chubby cheeks) love you baby (swara go from there in her room look toward sanskar see naina who trying to climb bed pulling sanskar) naina ( naina who hear swara look toward her with her cute cute button like innocent eyes swara go near her pick up her in her arm )what your doing here baby you were playing down na with kuhu and kiara what you want in my room that you never leave my room how much angry i was still you didn't leave my room what's in my room tell me that you want something baby (naina look toward swara then shake her head in yes) what you want tell na baby i will give you (naina look toward swara then look toward sanskar point toward sanskar. swara look toward naina in confusion )what about sanskar chachu baby (place her near sanskar naina climb on sanskar' and lay down beside sanskar then get up opening her eyes slowly look toward swara who understand what naina exactly wants to say swara close her eyes feeling heavy in her heart look toward naina smile in tears) you're sanskar chachu don't love us baby then what can we do he don't want to wake up he don't want to play with you naina that's why till now he didn't wake up and when he will wake up na we won't talk with him okey (naina who hear swara look toward her and shake her head in yes)
Naina - ... MA.........MASI........ Masi (swara look toward naina hearing her the first word she said Masi swara looks on she closed her eyes then open take naina in her arm)
Swara - you're Masi isn't good baby that you take het name as you're first Word i can't tell you what i am feeling right now because you will not understand very soon i will  bring little baby for you for playing tthen masi will not stay here for some days so will you take care of your Chachu i know you will take good care of you're Chachu but please don't do any stupid stunts okey baby masi WIKK daily call you okay (peck her forehead and lips softly and lovingly naina smile cutely) no mischievousness and naughtiness okey baby (place her on bed) stay here Masi is coming packing her bag because shivin mamu will come in sometimes to take Masi with him at his home (SWARa go to pack her stuff change in simple black colour long dress with black colour duppata at her right shoulder wear her vermilion and apply pinch of vermilion on her hairline and simple stone earrings and silver colour bangles in left hand take her sling bag and suitcase dial shivin's number