broken records/wilbur soot x female reader pov\

11.

A/n
another one where you make the music :D
i hope everyone had a good day or night-
cuz i am currently homesick :O

^ on repeat rn
#the new girl in red 😩
her voice is beautiful 😩😩😩
so fucking jealous rn.

Wilbur Pov :O

my head was resting on hers. she was slightly shorter then me, although unlike most woman she was rather tall. i think she told me she was 5"10 but then again tommy is tall for his age, so i wouldn't really expect less.

her hair was a bit of a mess, but then again so was mine. her body was so close to mine, and i don't know whether to feel comfortable or not... it wasn't usual for her to be this affectionate.

come on Will!
do it.
you will stress out more if you don't.
only way you'll ever know
expect disappointment
so you won't be disappointed.

(lmao i got that from marvel- spider-man no way home 🤭)

i put my hand on her knee, as to not freak her out if i put my hand on her thigh. i might be a little desperate but i ain't a douche. i respect woman... so much i struggle to be near them.
shit i sound like tommyinnit right now.

i feel her body tense up in my hand. i go to pull away before she gets anymore uncomfortable, except i feel her hand in mine. y/n begins to rub her thumb over my knuckles. making my heart beat out of its chest.
are you gonna back out?
or not?

i lift my head up slowly, and face towards her. she does the same, obviously catching on to something. *aaaahhhhhhhhhhh* i am internally screaming.

i place my free hand onto her cheek. running it down to her jaw, by now i don't even know  if i am conscious. y/n puts her free hand onto my thigh, apart of me thinks about moving my hand up hers, but i back out of the thought. i remember her telling me about how painful her thighs tend to get due to scars.

my next thought wanders to if she was comfortable. but i'm already lost in her eyes, they are like glass, but the kind that you put on door, the translucent ones. the ones you can half kind of see into. you can see the colours and process of thoughts, but you never know the feelings or emotions. practically closed doors.

i lean in, not necessarily to be closer. just to dig deeper into the mystery of y/n eyes. i feel her breath closing in on my lips. we get so close...
do it!
attaboy!
almost there!
one more burst of confidence—

"oh shit! i've gotta go!" she yells, she instantly pulls away from me. not even giving me anytime to process the rejection.
"i've got a song idea!" she shouts behind her.

"i was so close sid" i tell the cat, as he jumps up onto me. "i will do it quicker next time... wait that sounds a little nonce like, please don't tell her that"
"moew"
"i'm pissed with her too! don't blame this shit on me!"

Y/N pov ;)

I ran all the way to my room, making sure my door was properly closed behind me. this feeling in my chest was new to me. it was out of place, but i loved it.
he made all of the other thoughts fade away, and replaced them with  him. and i was okay with that. it made my heart light up. what are you doug to me will?

I pressed my fingers up to my lips, wishing that maybe one day soon the might be his. Oh god will... i should've stayed there. i could've gone through with it! but do i want to ruin what we already have?
will you ruin what you already have?
are you going to ruin everything?

Please forgive me, i've got demons in my head...
tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until i'm dead...

maybe he never wanted that with me, and just felt as though...maybe will is just like him. please don't bring anyone else into this. it messes with your head, keep that man out of your mind.

A/n

aaahhhh i am sorry this is short- next chapter will be better i promise! and it will be released sooner <3