Your little girl isn't so little anymore.
She's not that set little innocent
blonde girl running around laughing.
You didn't know what was going on inside my head.
You didn't see me slowly ripping
myself to shreds.
You didn't notice how I stopped smiling
as often,
how I was hiding from the world.
You didn't see me crying all those nights
because I was alone.
You didn't see the hell
I was putting myself through!
You didn't see my fighting to stay alive!
To go on another day!
You didn't see me forcing myself to breath
when I wanted nothing more than to die!
All you saw was the sweet little girl
without a care in the world!
You stopped paying attention to your
little girl!
Those puffy pink lines that begin to cover
her precious skin!
You don't see how your beautiful girl
can't look at herself in the mirror
without wanting to throw up!
How all she sees are flawed and mistakes!
Your little girl can't imagine anyone can
love her because she's not with enough!
She can't imagine anyone looking at her
and seeing beauty!
Oh your precious little girl.
Your beloved daughter.
Me.
I can't love myself,
Let alone have someone else love me.
I can't stand the look of my
naked body.
I can't stand myself!
But you don't see it!
You can't bring yourself down
from you perfect world!
You can't see me suffocating
in all these masks I wear!
You don't see me pinching my body!
Wishing the fat away!
You don't see me MOM!
You CAN'T see me!
To you, I'm just your perfect little girl!
But in reality,
I'm the farthest from it!
Why don't you see that!?
Why don't you see ME!?!
