A Perfectly Imperfect Love

Chapter Five; You.

You. You and me. We had such a good time together. The memories we made were so so happy and they made my soul warm when I replayed them in my head. It was so good. Good while it lasted.

As expected when you are with somebody and the highs are that sweet and pleasing the lows are oh, so, bitter and painful. Those memories, the bad ones, are so painful they make me sick in the stomach to think about them.

582 days I have known you. Seems like such a short time. It felt like a lifetime. But it only took 582 days for us to break. Sure enough within 582 days the love we had turned into poison. Such a pure love to a very very toxic, venomous poison. I wish it hadn't gone this way. So rotten and grim. I really wanted us to last. But it didn't. It went so very very wrong. We ended things in the worst way possible.

The way I look at it, the universe gives everybody one person. Just one. One person to love. One person to love them. That's just love. That's the way it is. There is no changing it. And with that love comes two possible ends; the smooth blunt end where you have the best time of your life with the person you love. And then there's the sharp rough end where the person you love rips out your heart and grinds it under their foot. Me having the most unfortunate luck, gets stuck with the sharp end of love. And so do you.

We could have got the smooth end. But you ruined it. You. It's your fault. Not mine. Not the universes. Yours. You threw everything we had away when you did what you did. And you deserved what came to you. You ruined my life. When you love somebody you are supposed to care for them and nurture the love between you. If you truly loved me then you wouldn't have cheated. You wouldn't have defiled me like that. You stripped away every bit of dignity I had. I was a messed up person before we met, you knew that and helped me become a better person. So you are truly evil for hurting me the way you did.

I was just doing the world a favour by ridding it of you. I'm not sorry for it. I consider myself a hero for removing a mistake like you. Now you can't ruin anybody else's life.