Mai Book of Art and Updates *warning: there may be rant*

Srsly Srs Bidnuss

Hey guys, it's the ACTUAL Creator and... I just... Want to ask you guys something... Do you think I'm annoying? I feel like I'm annoying people without meaning to and I'm starting to feel really bad. It's pretty much my fatal flaw to me. Cuz I think I think I'm just annoying you all with all the the little written skits I'm doing. For gods sake, I feel the same way with my friends irl (well, the few I actually have. I'm a pretty large extrovert...). I just... I don't know anymore. I mean when I started this I was literally all like: Hey, this'll be fun! Why not? Now it's just like: I have to update this... But... My grades doe... But... My followers... But... Education.... Why am I even alive? It's less than two months till summer vacations but until then, I still have one final project due at the end of this moth. I just.... *sigh*. Now don't get me wrong, I love Wattpad and all you crafters out there. You guys make me overjoyed with all the nice comments, reassurance and stuff like that. I'm just feeling like I'm kinda a bother to all of you... And then there's the people who just want me to update my books and don't care about my personal life ;~;. I love all of you guys almost more than anything. I'm trying to take me own advice, I really am. But I just want to make your lives easier and you deserve to be on a much more superior writer's account. I don't even know why people follow me or read my books, it's the honest to god truth. I honestly think they're pretty much no good (well most of them) and people just keep reading and reading them. 1 person follows me usually every other day and I'm literally so touched when people do. But why? Do they expect my writing abilities to get better and for me to be a better writer? Do they only to do it to be polite? Am I doubting myself after I've told you guys over and over about how you should be you and never think you're less than anyone? Maybe I am. I'm not depressed or anything, just a bit... Sad and shit... I know you guys in the comments are going to be like 'Don't worry, you're not a bother!' and 'Don't worry, it'll get better!' But how do I know if you're lying? I know you guys are really honest and I would honestly trust a couple people on this app with my life. But how do I know if you're just doing this to be polite? Well anyway, I'm going to bed. Bai bai guys...