The depth of my darkness began before I was a teen.
Its glory took months to succumb me.
I didn't understand it and embraced it like such,
Til I was told it was wrong... It was a spiral crutch.
I breathed it.
Ate it.
Drank it as a sponge do,
Til it showed up on my face an expression so chewed.
I loved it.
Needed it.
Found it to be the very thing I thought had my back,
Until the thoughts turned from sadness into... A motionless act.
Despair grew.
Loneliness shuddered.
I forgot the love of my mother.
I slept it.
I woke it.
I deemed it my all.
I denied.
I cried.
I blamed it my fall.
As I grew every year I began to notice it wasn't my friend.
That the darkness held me so long it was planning my end.
So I fought it, I tried, but it was all I had.
I couldn't fight a being... A being that didn't fit in a body bag.
So I got taller.
My brain; however stuck.
I had to rethink and rethink in trust.
I was selfish.
Emotional.
Holding my heart caged.
I let tears become the sunlight within my grave.
A lifelong battle from a friend I thought I knew.
Until I learned this friend kills Us... Them... And You.
I was but a child that didn't know my enemy.
Where I would've met the fate of a long tragedy.
Days at my lowest come with thoughts of rest.
The Ugly... Beautiful... Depth.... Of My Darkness.
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Darkness Within Light
PoetryA book of Poetry. A time in my life where nothing made sense and the only thing, I had to speak my truth was my keyboard or my pencil. These poems are all written as a piece of me. I'm sharing these with you. Read them at your own risk. This is when...
