Kpop Oneshots (Mostly BXB) (Requests Closed)

Insecure- Junji X Rie (OnlyOneOf)

^My favorite OOO song. 

Warning: Eating disorder, Self-harm, 

-Rie- 

     Practice is over. "Good job today Junji, lyOn isn't ready for your hips." I hear KB tell Junji. "Thanks Hyung." "Hey Rie." KB yells. "Yes?" "Maybe, we should practice solo sometime." He winks. The guys all burst into laughter. "Come on, he only wants Junji Hyung." Mill teases. I wish the world would swallow me. Am I that obvious? No, I've never told anyone. "Oh yeah, sorry Rie." KB teases. "It's okay." I rush to get to the van. I sit all the way in the back. Yoojung sits on the other side. "You okay?' "Yeah, can I shower first today? I'm really stressed and need to relax." "Okay Hyung. I was going to shower with Mill anyway." Mill and Yoojung have been together a few months now, at first we worried about Yoojung because he's so innocent and vulnerable, but Mill explained he'd never do anything Yoojung wasn't comfortable with. "Okay, have fun." I smirk. "Not like that Hyung. I don't want that yet." I smile at him. "You're adorable Jung." "Thank you." 

     We arrive at the dorms and I rush to YooJung and I's room. I grab clothes to change into and rush into the bathroom. I lock the door and begin to undress. I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and frown. I haven't been eating lately to lose weight, but it seems nothing's changed. I sigh and look down. I look at my arms. The cuts that lace my arms burn slightly. I grab my razorblade from it's hiding spot in the drawer, beneath the condoms. I hide it there because Yoojung doesn't use them, and no one wants me. I sit down on the floor in just my boxers. I slowly drag the blade across my arm. I hiss slightly at the sting but continue anyway. I don't stop until I have made 5 deep cuts on each arm.

     I sigh and stand up, turning on the shower and taking off my boxers. I get in and hiss at the burn and stinging off the water hitting my arms. I watch the red tinted water go down the drain. I silently cry to myself. This has been going on for months now, I tried to stop but it only lasted a few days and I was doing it again. I finish showering and wrap my arms. I put on my clothes and walk into the bedroom. I walk in and see Mill, carrying Yoojung. "He fell asleep, I'm bringing him to bed. You alright?" "Yeah." He kisses Yoojung head and walks out of the room. I lay down on my bed, thinking about Yoojung and Mill. There both younger than me and have each other. I have no one. 

-The Next Day-

     I wake up to someone shaking me. "Hyung, wake up. You need to eat breakfast." I open my eyes to see Junji hovering above me. "I'm not hungry, I'll eat later." That's when I notice he isn't wearing a shirt. I look away, not wanting him to see the blush on my face. "Hyung, you okay?" "I'm going back to sleep." I roll onto my side. I close my eyes, when I feel the bed dip. Junji lays behind me, putting his arm around me. "I'll stay here until you fall asleep." I smile. "Okay." In a matter of minutes, I'm asleep again.

-Junji-

     I listen to Rie's soft snores. I smile and peck his forehead. "One day. One day, you'll be mine." I whisper, getting up. I watch him sleep for a minute, until Yoojung walks in. "Junji?" "Oh, hey." "Why are you staring at Rie?" "It's nothing Hyung. I was just making sure he was asleep." Yoojung walks over to me. "Don't hurt him, he's already sad enough." "Sweetie what are you talking about?" "He cries himself to sleep a lot. Also, he cries to himself in the bathroom. Oh, and sometimes he cries when he thinks I'm asleep." I look back over to Rie. My heart shatters, hearing Yoojung's words. "Junji, is Rie okay?" "I hope so." I hate it when the other members are upset. "How about the next time he cries you come get me okay?" "Okay." I sigh and go back downstairs. "Yo, Junji we headed to the store need anything?" Nine yells from the door. "Um... just some wine." "Umm... okay." I sit down on the couch. 

     I look up from my phone as I see Rie walk in the room. "Hey." I whisper. "H-hey." I pat the couch next to me. He sits next to me. "You alright?" "Yeah." "You wanna eat now?" "I'm not hungry." "You haven't eaten since last night..." "I'm not hungry Junji." I look down. "Sorry Hyung." I stand up. "I'm going to go for a walk." I say. Rie looks down. "Okay." He gets up walking to his room. I grab my jacket and walk out the door. I walk down the street and to the park. I pull my hood up, not wanting to be recognized. 

     I keep walking when something hits my back. I turn around to see a ball on the ground. "I swrry." I see a little girl standing there. "It's okay." I hand her the ball. She looks to be no older than 4. "I'm sorry." What must be her mother says. "No, she's fine. It was an accident." I smile to the little girl and walk away. My phone rings, it's Yoojung. I answer the phone. "Its Rie, he's crying again." "I'm on my way." I run back to the dorms and to their room. Yoojung and Mill are there.

     "He's in the bathroom." Yoojung says. I walk over to the bathroom. I knock. "Rie?" "Leave me alone." "Rie please open the door." "I- I c-can't." "Rie?" No response. "Rie?" I panic now. "Yoojung, Mill, I need a paper clip or hair pin." I yell. One of them hand me a hair pin. I start picking the lock. I open the door and gasp. Rie's laying on the ground, in a puddle of blood. "Mill, call 911. Yoojung, go get the others." I hear okays as I grab a washcloth and run over to Rie. I find the bloods coming from his wrist. I hold the washcloth to the cuts, trying to stop the bleeding. "There's an ambulance on the way." Mill says, kneeling next to me. I nod, trying to hold back tears. "Junji, it's okay to cry, I know how you feel about him." "How did I not know he was hurting himself." I sigh as I hear the ambulance in the distance.

> There Will Be A Part 2.