After life

My last days

My last days went by fast, but they were fun. On monday me and my family went on a trip. We went up to this beautiful lake and spent the day there. We were swimming and fishing. My mother got an ear infection while swimming because she got some water in her ear, but other than that it was great. I almost felt bad, knowing what I was planning on doing. Everytime I looked at them all I could think of was how upset they would be when I did it. I don't even have anything wrong with me. I just want to return to the overworld. I diddn't want to hurt anyone but thats what was going to happen but theres not even a garentee that my suicide attempt is going to work.
On Tuesday I spent the day hanging out with a group of my close friends. We went to the park and hung out there for a bit and that was all.
On Wednesday I spent the day planning how I was going to do it. I decided I was going to do it around midnight when everyone was sleeping. I was going to slit my wrists in the bathtub. I knew it was going to be painful so I was going to have to prepare myself for it. I was excited to be able to go back to the overworld but I was also nervous about the thought of killing myself. I was excited as well. I would get my room again. I loved that room. It was everything I could never have while living. It was just so calming and great, I don;t know how to describe it.
When the sun started to set over the mountains I knew that it was almost time for me to go. I started to count down the hours like minutes. 4 hours, 3 hours, 2 hours, then 1. I only had 1 hour left. The minutes felt like they went by so quickly and then it was time. I walked up to my bathroom with my blade in hand. I walked in and closed the door behind me. I put the plug into the drain and started to run a warm bath. It didn't take long for the bath to fill up, but once it did I stepped into the bath still fully dressed and put the blade to my wrist. I started to slice. Each cut went deeper and deeper into my skin until I could see a fragment of my bone. That's when I stopped. I realized what I had done but it was too late. I could not go back, but this was what I wanted. Right? I was going to be in the overworld soon again. I would be satisfied.
With each blink everything around me started to become darker and darker. I watched as the water turned red. I lifted up my wrist slightly to watch the blood poor. It reminded me of a waterfall then. I died. I returned to that place I had been at once before. I was on the ground, and to each side of me there was a figure standing. To the left of me there was an angel, to the right a demon. The angle looked the same as before, holding out its hand. I lifted mine up and went with the angle once more. Once again we returned to the bright light/ We walked in and walked out, the same as before. I was greeted by the guide. It was Michelle again. She stared at me in pure shock.
"What are you doing here?! I thought you left! Samual had returned you to Earth! This can't be possible!" She yelled in shock.
"Why did you get rid of me?! I was happy! Why did you make me go back, I was dead!" I argued back.
She stood for a second, just staring. Then she opened her mouth once more and said, "The council had decided you were not ready. They needed to send you back. They didn't think you were ready to die yet. How did you get back here?"
"I killed myself," I responded, "I slit my wrists in my bathtub. I wanted to return back here. I was happy here."
"The council isn't going to like this... I'm going to have to make you appear in front of them now. Since they had already sent you back once and you've returned due to self inflicted damages you will have to appear in front of them. They will decide if you can stay. Follow me now." She demanded.
She looked angry and almost.. disappointed? I thought she would be happy to see me again. Why would she ever be disappointed?
I followed her down a white hallway, then to a door. She walked with me into the room. There was a huge table in the room and surrounded by 4 angels. They had big feather covered, dirty white wings. Above all their heads were halos. Dark yellow, almost orange looking and they were glowing. Three of them had white eyes, the other had pitch black. I assumed that was the head of the council. He looked like he had the most power, he looked strong.
I stood there, waiting for one of them to say something.
"What are you doing here again? Didn't we get rid of you?" One of the women asked.
"She wanted to come back," the guide explained, "So she killed herself in order to come back. She's actually dead this time so I'm not sure what to do since you guys got rid of her last time, you can't just send her back again."
"Well we can't banish her to the underworld since she has done nothing wrong," The woman explained, "So i'm not exactly sure on what to do but we can't keep her here."
"I'm sorry, I just wanted to come back," I said before being interrupted.
"Quiet. If i'm going to have to deal with the trouble you're bringing me, I don't want to hear you babbling on with your excuses" The man said.
He seemed angry, I felt bad. I liked it here. I just wanted to be happy. It made me happy and that was all I wanted, I felt so bad.