Love thoughts

Little child

Hey I hope you gonna like this chapter I work really hard on it
So after like two days I went to school and when I saw Jack he came to me and said «Hi» «hey how you're doing?» «good good I just wanna talk to you about something » «yeah sure » omg every time he said this my heart run faster «well I just wanna ask you if you want to come over after school to see the boys » «mm okay it a good idea but you know I need to ask my family »«yeah of course » and then I said «okay then I'll tell after break?» he responses «no this is my number call me when you affirm that okay?» ughhh omgg he really gaver me his number «yeah yeah I'll call you » omg I really got nervous I really didn't know what to said so I called my old sister cause I'm sure she gonna say yess cause she's the one that I love most because she's always by my side and she's the one who understands me and my feelings so I called her and yeah she said yess it okay you can go now I need to call Jack omg I hope that I don't fuck up so I called him he response with a deep voice saying «hey so what did they said» I said «they said yess I can came over» I heard like a little noise saying YESSS omg that really funny and he coughed and said «okay fine I'll wait for after school »
The final hour caned and after that I got my things in my bag and left the class and then I saw him waiting for me at the door so I smiled at him he said «why you're smiling » «nothing it just weird because I saw here at my class» «well you need to get normal cause it won't be tha last time »omg I'm chock is this really my crush that I know every time he makes me in love more then before so we arrived at his house and when he opened the door I saw Matt sitting and watching tv when he saw he camped and said«oh what a surprise Rose hey how you're doing »and he wanted to hug but I back up he look confused so I said to him«I'm sick so I don't want you to get that too sorry» he looked disappointed and said «it okay» and Jack looked happy with my action that I made I know I know I shouldn't do that but Matt has a crush on me but I need to make a stop to this if I don't it'll be a problem between the brothers because of me and that bad so I was obligated to do that well I hope that everything gonna get better so I asked Jack what about your little brother where's he » Matt said « my father caned this morning and took him» I saw the real anger version of Jack at that moment he screamed and said«hein why you didn't call me I told to don't give him the boy and why you didn't say no to your father » then Matt response «hey calm down I was shocked for seeing him I didn't know what to do» «don't tell me to calm down tomorrow I'll go to bring him back » «okay» so after a while Jack asked «do you want pizza ?» Matt said «yess just order what you want I'm going to the gym » so it end up just me and Jack so he said to «look I'm sorry I didn't know that my father took so I was angry»I response «nah it okay it normal even in my house we fight all the time no worries » so he started smiling and looking at me and that thing made me nervous so I cut that saying«so what did you order »he responses «actually I didn't order anything do you want to cook with me pasta»omg I'm really happy he really ask me to cook with him so I said «yess ,I'll » so we went to the kitchen I washed my hands and then I put my hair up and while he was looking with his hand on his and with shining eyes that I'm in love with them they are brown like a chocolat omg if I want to describe him I won't stop believe me so he makes some music to get the vibe and it was a beautiful one it named "part time lover by Stevie Wonder" and I really like it so I makes the sauce and he make the pasta and then it time to make the sauce in the pasta and make it on two plates after that he start making the table I asked him «do you want me to help you for doing the table »he said «no,thanks I got this » so we eat that delicious pasta it was really good I really like it then he said«omg this is really good »I response «yeah did you see I can cook very well » and then he start laughing omg his laugh is really extremely amazing I can see him laughing for the rest of my life and never get bored then he said «don't forget that I helped you» «Nn I mean yess you help me but not that much cause the important is how to make the sauce» «you're right but honestly it really good thank you » «it fine I really liked it to making this with you and you see you got really better » he stop smiling and then I said «what about your father what's happening with him?» he sighed and then looked at me «I don't like him cause he left as when I was 11 do you know what that means it means that I grow up without a father I past 7 birthdays without him and I was the one who take care of my family at the age of 11 so I don't want him back now after my mom died I don't need his help » he's eyes turned red and he was really angry he really hate him for what he did to them and honestly if my father did that too I won't forgive him and I won't need his help never and then I said «but you know it your father and your he's still younger do you want him to live the same thing that you lived and Matt he still young » he didn't response and he put he's head on the table and just staring at the floor so after that I start cleaning the table and take the dishes and when I finished he caned to the kitchen and I said to him«you're okay?» «yeah I just get mad when I remember what I had past on »«hey listen the past is the past don't think about anymore I had the same thing and honestly overthinking will kill you believe » «yeah I know thank you what about you never talked about yourself it just me I wanna know »«well when my mom died I past by some difficult times I got depression I felt like there's no one who can understand my situation right now and I felt really weak I literally lost myself I didn't eat enough just one meat a day many other things but I remembered that when my aunt came to see us after vacation she was shocked how I looked so she said to me «Rose you need to wake up you're in a nightmare you know that this not you where's that Rose with energy and with positivity and active where did she go I know you lost the person that you loved and that's really hard but you need to keep move on » and I literally start crying cause when I remembered how I was when my mom died and how many tears I lost and how many night I stayed up because I couldn't stop thinking made me really sad and then he âme and hugs from the back omg that was like magic I didn't know what I just cried he said to me«shh please don't cry I didn't mean to hurt you with that»I wanted to stop crying but I couldn't cause when I was talking to him I felt there's something in my mouth stuck there I couldn't breath after a while I started to calm and then he said «it okay if crying makes you feel better so it okay you can cry I'm here don't worry »«thank you for being with me » after that I went to wash my face and I looked really horrible my mouth was really red my cheeks too and my eyes were red and big to hug want outside to take some cold wind and then I went inside and so him in front of him so I kept my eyes on the floor because I looked really dumb he said to me«are you alright »«yeah I'm fine I need to go home now » «okay I'll take you » so I take my bag and we went outside well my house is not that far so when we arrived he said to me «thank you for the pasta and for everything »«no it okay thank you too I had a good time cooking with you so »«goodbye » I response «bey take care of yourself» «okay you too»