Sometimes love is difficult.
To love someone is to care about that person,
In this book I'm going to introduce you many types of love that I know which is mine and from my friends experience.
To be honest with you,this book is like my diaries cause...
So tomorrow I went to school again omg I really hate school cause every time I study really hard and then got nothing I study for day and night and in the end nothing just bad marks and when I came home everybody start saying just shit "you don't study enough,you're always on your phone you don't work hard "all this things and the teachers same thing same bulshit ugh I don't know what to do with that So I saw Matt he came to me and said «hey did you see Jack did he call you or something» «no,why what happened ??» he sighed and said «my father came yesterday at night and he bring my little brother and he invited us to his wedding so Jack got really mad and he started screaming at dad after that he left the house and I don't know where's he now» I was in chocked that I made my hand on my face and I didn't know what to say «so if you see him or something just tell me please okay?»«okay okay I'll tell you don't worry » I think I know where's he so I didn't go to class I went to check if he's there so I took the bus and went to see him so when I arrived I saw him sitting in the chair with his hand on his neck and eyes on the floor he looked at me surprised and he said «how did you know that I'm here» I smiled at him and response «yeah I guess I'm lucky to find you..why didn't you come to school?» «I didn't want to» «your sure? I talked to Matt this morning you can tell if you want »«so you know what happened my father is going to marry and he want us on his wedding »«it hurt I know when you see your father gonna marry another woman »he's eyes turned red and he was going to cry «and it just a fucking moth of my mother's funeral » I couldn't resist to see him like that I felt his pain so I just grebes his hand and then he pulled me closer so I hugged him I felt his heart burning he didn't cried he was just hugging me in silence... But I thought crying will make him feel better cause I wanted him to feel okay so cause sometimes crying make you feel better when you have no words to say and you don't know how to explain your feelings or why your upset you need just to cry So after that I wanted to get up but he holds my hand and said «don't go stay for a while » omg I felt really sad when he said he really needed that hug and he didn't want me to see him crying so I stayed for a while then we heard a phone call it was mine and it my bestie so I response and she said«hey where are you Matt told me about Jack did you hear??»«yeah I know about that don't worry I'll call you later bey » «okay be careful »«I'll » so Jack said«is that Matt » «no it my bestie she was worried about me » he smiled and said that cool you have friends who worry about you» I felt him in that moment and I was in the same situation so I said to him «and I worry about you you're not alone okay? And if you don't want to go to this wedding don't go it fine you should do what you really want » he sighed for a time and then said to me «thank you for being with me » «I'll always be there for you » he smiled and stay looking at me we had an eye contact it was like a magic i couldn't take my eyes off.. Then he said «you wanna go ?» «no it okay I think we should stay here for this day I need a break » I really wanted to stay with him for a few hours I asked him «do you wanna listen to some music ?» he said«okay go ahead » I pulled my AirPods I gave him one and opened my phone I chose the music of Bruno Mars -looked out of heaven I love that song I listen to it when I'm lazy and not in the mood to get more energy and positive vibes it such a good song so I think he like it when the song ends he smiled to me and then said «do you wanna eat something?»«yeah I'm hungry I didn't got my coffee this morning » so he ordered pizza and we ate after that I said to him «so what you're gonna do?» he responses «about what ?» «about the wedding » he sighed and said «I don't know maybe Matt and Stefan will go and I won't I don't wanna go to that bullshit » I said «this is your decision just do what you feel is great » «yess» so we ended up chilling and listening to good music it was such a vibe I really love it After that my father called I really didn't want to talk but I responses cause I thought maybe was something wrong he said «hey Rose I got a call from your school where are you ?!» damn he knows I didn't know what to say so I just told him the truth « well dad I had to skip the school because my friend need me I'm sorry but I'll explain when I came promis» «okay okay I'll wait when you come» Jack asked about who was calling so I said to him that it not that emportant so he sent me home and he said to me «thank you Rose you're really a good friend » well that word "FRIEND " really hurt me I thought I was more than a friend I don't why he didn't get it that I love him I really did everything for him I tried to stay with him when he felt so lonely just so that he doesn't get hurt the way I did cause I was alone nobody could understand me and I tried to be with him for like everyday even in the weekends I always proposed to my father to go to see them jut for him but he doesn't get it I don't know why Well I went home and explained to my father he yelled at me so loud because I didn't asked for his permission he was angry about and I get it I know it was my fault after that I didn't see him for a week I didn't even wanted to see him... Saturday I was studying like usually in my room with the door closed and then I heard some noise came from the outside I thought maybe it was my father but then I heard a strange voice I opened the door and looked secretly who was it Damn it him Jack I didn't like that so I came back to my room and looked the door silently then my sister called with a smile face and said «Rose Rose Jack is here come on and say hey » « No I don't wanna see him and I'm studying » « no you need to come on get up» « pff why he is even here » « I don't know he said when you came he'll tell us » i was confused about why he called so I get down and said hey damn he was really handsome with a black suit and he had a new haircut damn you know when the boys had their haircut they are kind of hot and I don't know why so yeah he was cute and that made me smiled to him and then he said« well I'm here sir to take Rose with me for a dinner » ugh WHAt I mean WHY what happens «because my father invited me to his house to have dinner with his new wife so if you want » my father looks at me for bit and then said «for me I'm okay with that but ask her if she want to» so he looked at me and said «Rose would you like to go with me just for a night ?» I didn't know what to say maybe it sounds good maybe not because if I go with I can't forget about him at all and I'll still love him and that makes my heart burn so much so I set silently and the said to him«okay » he looked really happy it was like he asked me for a date and I accept it so I went to my room and the first question was what I'm gonna wear damn I don't have really good dresses then my sister came and said « I know know what it going on your head don't worry you're gonna leave from this door with a perfect dresse and make up I'm here »so we stayed for like an hour and half and then I looked to the mirror and said wow this is magic I've totally change damn this make up is so good and I dressed up it was a longe black dress with short sleeves something like this My look:
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His look:
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And then I took my phone and took some photos of it after that my father called me and «come on Rose it been 2hours and you still there » I said «I'm coming » and when I show up he was totally surprised of how I looked I know same for me I've never dressed up so good like this time his eyes were shining and he had a big smile on his face like a little boy so he didn't what to say and then my father always break the beautiful moment so he said «omg is this really my daughter?» then Jack said «you look » ughhhh I really loved this word from him so I was excited about the dinner with his father so we went with the car and when we arrived the first thing I noticed was the house was huge damn it like the houses in the movies then we went to the door before he knocked the door I said « you're okay ?» he sighed and said «I'm fine let just finish quickly this damn dinner and then we leave » «okay but if you really don't wanna go we can go back » « no it fine » so he knocked the door and then his wife opened and looked at us with a smile and said «welcome I'm great full you called Jack » so he showed a fake smile and said «hi nice to meet you » and then she said « and you supposed to be his gf right?» I was about to say I'm just a friend that called to help him to end up this dinner but then Jack looked at me and sad «yess Rose is my girlfriend she's my girlfriend you're right» damn I'm dreaming or Jack just said that I'm his girlfriend damnnn I'm happy even if I know it not true so I smiled at him and then I took off my jacket then he touched my waist and said «can I ?»i nodded saying yess so he pulled me closer to him so we could walk together omg my heart was about to blow I couldn't believe it and then we said hey to his father after that a girl with a red dress came to us she was beautiful really it was the daughters of his new wife so she said hey and we went to the table it was pretty nice so he pulled the chair for me ✨such a gentleman ✨I smiled to him saying «Thank you» and I noticed that the girl watched me with a dirty eye I mean who are you to look at me like that she thought I'm his sister or what of course I'm the Girlfriend «in my imagination of course » but I liked playing the role so we ate it was tasty and his father was trying to make more conversations with us asking a lot of questions just for that he talk to his son so the desert caned and then the girl started talking «so Jack how old are you? » I took a deep breath cause that made me angry so he replies with a soft response «I'm 19» so that kind of make me happy because he didn't have her a chance to talk more about him so we end up the dinner I wanted so bad to leave I was really tired my eyes were about to close in any time and Jack noticed that so he said to his father «we should leave now Rose come on let get you home » so he took my hand and he grabbed my waist into him and grabbed my bag damn that was pretty hot but I was a little sleepy I didn't noticed and then we said goodbye and left the house so when we went to the car he asked me«so do you wanna go home or somewhere else?» so I was really tired but I knew that he wanted to speak so I said «I want so coffee » he smiled at me and said«that great» so we went to a cafeteria near us and he asked me «so did you like the dinner » «yes it was good » «that sit good ? Really» he knows what he's doing he want me to talk about that girl so I did it «well she's nice but her daughter I didn't like her really » «mmh why she's nice » I rolled my eyes and didn't say nothing cause I was really tired I didn't want to talk about that girl more
