Love thoughts

Cold blood💔

Jack POV:
I don't know why she's doing this she's really here just for me I wasn't an important person to someone for my entire life but she does care about me and I'm scary that she'll be disappointed because I'm always the bad guy who hurt people always who doesn't care about anybody....
When I released that now I'm the one who take responsibility after my mother's death and I don't know what to do I'm lost I don't have any plans so I was really mad and when I saw her I felt really relaxed her eyes makes me feel crazy she's a real beautiful person she has the purest soul and I know she just tried to help me but I hurt her she's an angel I don't deserve her I can't be with her
Rose POV:
Well it been a week and I still didn't saw him in school I just asked Matt about how is he doing he said that« he's just lost he's always silent and every night I heard him crying in silence just for that we couldn't listen to him »
I don't know what to do I really wanna go and stay with him but not after what he did to me ..
Today after school I went home and at dinner my father said«we need to go to see the boys how they are doing okay..now they are lonely so we need to check them every time we find the chance to go » so I kind of felt happy to go to see him
Tomorrow arrives and we bought pizza for dinner and went to their house so when the door was open I was chocked he was really tired with red eyes and I really felt upset so he said to us with softly voice «hello thank you for coming » so we get in the house in silence and with chocked faces about how he was and I said to him «you're okay?? Where are the boys?» he turns he's back to me  and said "I'm fine just stop asking plz and the boys they are on their rooms go check them if you want" I rolled my eyes and went to see the boys so I knocked the door and Matt opened the first thing he did is hugging me and I was confused about what to do it was really awkward I didn't know what to do the I heard someone behind us saying «come on dinner time and you let her go» so I turned around and saw Jack with a mad face and having a knife in his hand it was really funny to see how jealous he was so I said «and the knife for what?» he rolled his eyes and said to me «I was cutting the apples and I said no more questions» I responses «mmm okay let go boys to eat pizzaaa» so it was a great dinner we talked about our week and how it was going then my father said to Jack « what about you Jack how was your week ? Did you go to school ?» he responses «yes it was okay and yes I went to school » he lied I didn't see him for one day why he did that like for what reason?? And then the silence goes back and everyone is just eating then Adrien said with à softly voice «my mom used to love pizza with cheese» I really felt upset and I hugged him and said «it okay don't be said» then Jack stands up from the chair and went outside after that we start packing up the table and my sister said to me «hey go check him if he's okay» I response «he won't listen to me» my sister «go just try maybe he'll finally talk just go I got this » so I grabbed my jacket and his jacket for him cause it was freezing outside and I closed the door behind he noticed that it was so he didn't make any reaction I given him his jacket and «here pull this before you get sick » he take it from without even saying thank you or anything so I couldn't say nothing we were just standing there in the cold weather... after that my father caned and said «he you too come inside it freezing right here » Jack said «no I'm fine you can go Rose with your father inside I'm fine» I raised my eyebrow up and said «really you think I'll leave you alone it okay dad I'm fine here don't worry about us » so my father looked at me with an angry face I know I messed up by break my father's word but I didn't mean it I just wanted to stay with Him
A while after he saw d to me «you should go home it late » I response «okay I'll but why you don't wanna explain to me what's happening you're just silence and upset?» he said «I don't wanna talk right I'm tired plz just GO HOME » I response «FINE»
The weekend ends and it Monday I went to school like usually and then I saw him I was really happy that he's finally back to school and I think he gonna be better by the days after lunch I went to the library to bring more book again because I need them for my studies then suddenly I saw Jack again in the chair reading a book with headphones in this ears he was such a handsome with black outfits like usually ughh that why I love him because he's such a gentleman and cultivate guy so I went to him and take one of his headphones and make it on my ears he was listening to
"Another Love _by Yom Odell "
And that I really love most times when I listened to it make me cry cause the lyrics are really hard cause it makes me feel like the lyrics are my own life you know that feeling when you listen to a song and it sounds familiar because of the lyrics you really feel like your heart is burning
So I said to him«it a good one» he said with a little smile «thanks... hey I wanna tell you something » ugh I'm nervous what's happening why he wanna tell me something what wrong what did I do okay calm down Rose we gonna see what wrong so I set behind him in the other chair and response «yes,what wrong » «I just want to tell that I'm sorry about what happened yesterday I know you wanted to help me but I wasn't on the mood so I'm sorry if I said something that hurt you» I smiled at him and said«it okay I know you're not well this days and I can understand that but it fine don't worry everything gonna be okay » he smiled and said «okay so do you wanna come with to somewhere?» OMG what did he said ahhhh «where??» he said «you gonna see just come » he laterally took my hand and and hold it for the walk omg I feel like my heart beats so fast so I was just frozen for the whole walk I couldn't even talk I was afraid that my face gonna be red so I kept my eyes on the floor
When we arrived he said «this is the place that I needed you to see it » it a wonderful place you came see just nature and hear silence omg I really loved those places where you can't see no one just animals and trees like just nature that sit so I said to him« this amazing where did you find these place ?»«well it my confortable zone I came here when I need to relax when I need to take off all my thoughts it just you and me who knows about this place» I saw a start in he's eyes when he was talking about this place he was like a child who's talking about something that he loved the most omg it the first time that I see Jack really talking to with honesty and I don't want him to stop «wow this is really magic I love it can I take some pictures cause I don't wanna forget it ever » he said «no I can take you anytime you want just don't plz» «okay as you want» so we sit in the chair and just looking on this magic place in silence I really enjoy it cause I need it to rest on a beautiful place like this
So it was 5pm when he told that we should go before it get dark I didn't want that cause I really loved the place it was such a vibe so in our way to home I said to him «thank you» «it fine I just wanted to share with you a secret »omg yess he laterally show me he's secret that anyone know it that really awesome so I smiled and said«yeah it was a beautiful one »he smiled and just keeps look at me which is makes me nervous every time