𝙞𝙣 𝙬𝙝𝙞𝙘𝙝 𝙨𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚
𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙡𝙮 𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙝𝙚𝙧
started: nov 16 2021
completed: jan 4 2022
(unedited)
this was my first time writing a fanfic so it's not the best :)
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mar 30 2018! 10:00 AM! JULIA
I WAS IN A VET CLINIC IN TORONTO waiting for news about Celia. I cried for hours. I felt like my tears ran out and I couldn't cry anymore. The veterinarian walked towards me and I stood up hoping the news she would give me was good.
"You're cat has Congestive Heart Failure. Her heart isn't pumping enough blood to other parts of her body...
She continued speaking but I couldn't listen. First my mom and now Celia. My mom listened to what the vet said.
"Julia she doesn't have much time left."
I'm so fuxking stupid. If I had just payed more attention to her then this wouldn't have happened.
"It's too late to treat her"
It's too late to treat her
It's too late to treat her
It's too late to treat her
"This is all my fault mom. What am I going to do?" My voice was breaking I placed my head on the crook of her neck and sobbed.
This is all my fault All my fault
My fault
mar 30 2018! 12:00 PM! JULIA
IM SITTING IN MY HOTEL ROOM BESIDE CELIA trying to compose myself before I break the news to Rob. He loved Celia and Celia loved him. She would always go to him when he came over and he would pet her and take care of her.
I pressed 'Call' and he picked up after a few rings. We still weren't in a good place.
"Rob" My voice started to break
"What?" He said in a rude tone
"Celia has Congestive Heart failure" I cried
"Wait, What?" He said with concern
"Her heart isn't pumping enough blood for other parts of her body"
"So what does this mean? Is she getting treated"
"It's too late to treat her" I sobbed
"Rob It's all my fault. I hate myself. I don't deserve anything good. I'm horrible" I started rambling
"No you're not. Juliet, It's not your fault. How would you know"
I stayed silent
"Exactly love"
"I'm so sorry, Rob"
"I'm sorry too"
may 4 2018! 10:00 AM! JULIA
ITS BEEN SROUND A MONTH since the tour started and since I went to the vet for Celia. Shes been getting more sick by the day. I'm trying not to think about her being gone but it's hard. I can't imagine what I would do without her. I've only had her for a year but she makes me feel really good about myself and she has helped me through so much.
Rob and I have been doing well, long distance has been working so far and I only have four more months before I finish the tour. I'm going to london soon and I will be staying over at Robs familys house. I will also be surprising him there, I know he's gonna be there to visit his family.
I'm not completely sure what was going on with him and Astrid but I've decided to try my best to trust him even though it sometimes is incredibly hard. I've never spoke to Astrid before but Rob tells me she is a good person and she would never do what I think she would.
I'm sitting on a bed in my hotel room petting Celia when an idea for a song pops up in my head. I start thinking of chords I can use for the song. I get my guitar out and I start strumming it with the chords I can use. It's a song about materialistic things not mattering to someone when their in love. It's also a representation of what I feel about Rob. He could ask to marry me with a paper ring and it wouldn't matter to me.
As I'm writing I get a facetime from Jack Antonoff. I press the green accept button and his face pops up on my screen.
"Guess what" He says
"What?" I reply
"We're pregnant" He then shows his wife Sydney and I'm dumbfounded. I'm incredibly happy for them they had been trying for a few months now and they did it.
"Congratulations" I yell cheerfully
"Thank you"
"How far along are you?"
"Six weeks"
"That's great I'm so happy for you guys"
"Thank you Jules. Oh also we were wondering if you wanted to be the baby's Godmother"
"Yes. Yes. Yes" I started junping up and down. I was ecstatic
"You would make a great mother" Sydney said
"Thank you Syd"
you would make a great mother. That stayed in my head for quite a bit. Motherhood I've always wanted to be a mother. As a child I would always get those baby alive toys and play with them and until now I still feel the same way about being a mother. I'm just not sure if I'm ready and Rob and I aren't even married yet.
JINS NOTES: MERRY CHRISTMAS TO THOSE WHO CELEBRATE IT!!
