Promise

Chapter 12:Strength

So i'm sorry this isn't how I want to start off the story, but it's just something that I have to get off my chest and I hope you guys do not mind. So I'm in a relationship currently and being in a fight with your boyfriend sucks ass. I mean, like seriously last night was the worst thing ever! We had a huge argument over something someone had said about us. At first our argument was not that bad until he said that he would not give a fuck if we broke up, I was of course angry and hurt over that, afterwards he said that he hung up on me. 

I seriously thought that we were over, and so I was crying all over the place; yeah I know. Why would you shed some tears for a jackass like him. And let me tell you. I care for him. Not only was he my best friend but he was also my boyfriend. He was a huge part of my life. We have been in a relationship since grade 10. So it's been like what, 3-4 years that we spent time together. We did apologize to each other at the end of the night, and to be honest, I was kind of hoping we would end things. Let me tell you my reason for saying that. 

He is a muslim, while I on the other hand is a buddhist. We both knew that with both of our religion, there would be no chance between us, and yet we still pushed through those obstacles and look how far we made it. For his religion, it is Haram to be in a relationship and for me, it's not really a big problem if I am in a relationship, because my family we aren't really strict buddhists, anyway I had a feeling that it would sometimes bother my boyfriend whenever we go out. He doesn't really like the prying eyes that other people would give us. Should I be offended that he is bothered by that? I don't know. I guess what I'm trying to say or ask is that would it be better if we ended things right away. Just so that he and possibly myself could feel at peace? 

But anyways, thank you for listening to me rant on about my relationship. I always thought I would never do this. But I did it anyway LOL. So i hope you guys enjoy this story and I will talk to you guys later. 

P.S Oh yes, some of you guys messaged me personally, asking if i had Instagram, Snapchat, and FB. Yes I do have those though my FB is my personal but maybe I will give it to you :) So if you guys would like to know my username then please leave a comment! 

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Promise

(Day 19)

 I still kept getting blurry eyes lately, and yes I did make an appointment with my doctor but I would have to wait for an entire month until I could see him. Which sucks but it's what it is, so complaining won't do anything to make the process more shorter. 

Anyways here I was sitting on the stoolin my kitchen as I watched Loanne talk about the models on the cover of Vogue. 

"Boo, you seem more like you are complaining about the more instead of sounding in love with them..." I said softly as I cut off Loanne. 

"Oh... did I sound like that?" She asked. I nodded my head and smiled at her before looking back at the magazine. Then it hit me again. Everything was blurry. My heart began to race, I tried my very best to keep calm in front of Loanne but I knew that she would notice it right away. All I knew was that I really needed a distraction. I needed Loanne to get out of here for a bit while I freak. 

Suddenly, as if God finally answered me, the doorbell rang. I could hear Loanne shuffle before her footsteps echoed against the floor.

Reaching up quickly, I began to rub my eyes. I didn't stop at all, until I heard the door close, then I dropped it. Blinking my eyes repeatedly, I looked around and sighed mentally that I could finally see again.