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💦Crying At Midnight💦

Crying at midnight
Jailey oneshot
Fluff/angst?

Hailey's pov

It was about 11:50 pm and I woke up hearing a noise...
I look around and I notice that Jake isn't sleeping on my side as he should be... Weird...

I got up from the bed with the goal of finding Jake.
Maybe he is in the bathroom doing the private thing? No.
Maybe he is in the kitchen having some snacks? Also no.
Maybe he is in the living room watching a movie? No. He is not there too.
Where could he be?

After checking the living room, I heard that noise again and decided to follow it. Seems like it's coming from outside?
The noise started to get louder and louder as I approach the door for the garden behind the house. It seems like... Crying noises...

I take a deep breath and softly open the door...

There he was.

Jake was sitting on a bench, hugging his kness and hidding his head. It really got me off guard.

I never saw Jake cry before. No one in the club did. The only time we saw him cry, was from happiness when we won the competetion. Other than that, we never saw a tear on his face.
Jake is a very optimistic person, he always finds a solution for every problem and never lets anything, or anyone, put him down. If you can make Jake cry, you must be a monster.
And we can't forget that Jake is also very proud. He never admits vulnerability, and hates admiting that he's upset about something. He really doesn't like people to see his sensitive side. He doesn't like people to see him being "weak".

I started to slowy get closer to him as the crying noises get louder. I already heard a lot of Jake's noises. Embaressed ones, nervous ones, happy ones, angry ones, exited ones... But I never heard the crying ones. His crying wasn't loud or dramatic like a spoiled child when they don't get the toy they wanted. It also wasn't uncontrolled making him barely breath. It was soft, quiet, and angsty. Like it was meant to no one hear. Like it was meant to be silent. Silent about his pain
"Jake..?" I called putting my hand on the bench.
As soon as he saw me, he immediately wipped his tears away and put a smile on
".. Yes ma'am?.." He asked trying to use a happy tone, but I am not going to fall for it.
"Cut off the acting Jake" I said as I sit next to him
"Wha?-" He pretended to be confused. But he knew what I was taking about. I know that he knew.
"Jake I saw you crying. What in the world made you got up from your bed and come here in the cold to cry in the middle of the night? What's wrong?" I asked looking deeply in his eyes

The chocalate eyes that were full of joy, spirit, and sparkles. Now were full of pain, dark, and without sparkles.

He looked down and started to shake. I sighed. I forgot about how hard it was for him to open up. But I kept being patient.

I put my hand on his shoulder to make him feel confortable around me and break his resistance. I really want to know what is on his mind that is hauting him so much...

"Jake... You know you can you trust me right?" I said putting my hand on his head trying to make him face me until he finally spoke.

"I'm just... Feeling guilty"

"... What? Feel guilty for what?"

"FOR EVERYTHING OK???" He said anxious as some tears started to come again
I wasn't understanding anything until he took a deep breath and started to explain
"I had a nightmare about my old bullies... The ones that used to pick on me on middle school you know? And it also was about the day I met Drew and the others and... That got me thinking... I am a horrible person." He whined as he hides his face with his hands
"What? Why???" I asked confused
"I just feel dirty you know? I followed Drew's influence just to fit in, and I bullied you guys for the same reason people bullied me, I was enough of a coward to hurt people that never made anything bad to me, only because I was pressured by my own stupid problems. And worst of all, I still had the guts to join the music club even after everything I've done to you guys, and I ditched my friends even after everything we went trough together. Don't you think that's selfish?" He asked me looking at me, with the eyes full of tears again. Before I could say anything, he looked down again and whispered
"I'm such a horrible friend..."
I... Didn't know what to say. It felt like a knife in my heart. Nothing hurts me more than Jake hurting himself. He thinks he's a bad person. He thinks he's a bad friend. I... Can't stand this.

I was still processing everything to know exactly what to say to comfort him, and while I think about it, I did the first thing that came into my head that can comfort that restless heart for now.

A hug.

All that poor thing need is a hug.

Soon I felt him hugging me back

Jake's pov
I felt Hailey's arms around my body... Soon I felt warn, and safe. I stopped shaking, and my tears dried. After recompose myself, I heard Hailey say in my ear:
"You are not selfish Jake. You're far from it. You're the most selfless person I know. Even after everything you've done to us, you still wanted to get our trust and help all of us with our problems without wanting anything as a payback, this an act of a truly selfless person. And you're not a bad friend, a coward, or dirty neither. You didn't know that Drew and the others were bad influences, or else you wouldn't have even stayed with them and defended them for so long. You just wanted to be accepted for who you are, and after being rejected so many times you became traumatized with all of this." she said as she started to pet my hair. I felt her fingers touching my head and I lightly blushed.
"And about what you did to me and the club..." She said pulling me away from the hug "Jake... How many times do we have to tell you that we forgive you?" She looked at me softly and I looked down "Jake... You know we trust you right? So... Why can't you trust us too? We already showed in all the ways possible that you're a part of this family now, whetever you like it or not" She grabbed my chin making me face her "So why do you still worry about the past? One thing is regret. Torture yourself with it is another."

Nobody's pov
Jake stared at Hailey once again, and then hugged her in an act of joy. The girl was suprised at first but eventually she hugged him back

"Thanks princess..."

"You're welcome prince."