Surprises's to me

Feelings

As I close my eyes to brace for the fall, my ankle twisted at the same time, great! Not only do I injure foot, I am going to injure my face. Great, double the damage. However, Jana bends down and dipped her hand next to me in order to spin me around and hold me into her arms prevent me from falling flat onto the ground. At this moment we gaze into each other eyes without moving an inch, her eyes are so amazing in complex, everything is perfect about her eyes, the colour, the shading. Just everything! Her face slowly inching forwards towards me, my heart is thumping so loudly that is feels like I need to get away from Jana or I will be in deep deep trouble. Her lips nearly touches mine, at this instant I shoved her away. Ops, I forgot that she was supporting me, BAM! I fall bottom first onto the ground. Great! This is embarrassing. I quickly got up and try to run back to my flat, ouch. My ankle, it hurts. I can’t handle the pain my tears start to stream out like a water fountain. Without warning Jana scoop me up into her arms, holding me like a princess. What? What is this, my heart is beating tremblingly fast that I have no clue what is going on. I want it to stop so I yell to Jana, “Let me down!” she did not listen to a single word I said, she carries on walking towards my flat. As she walks down the road she looks at me and ordered me to tell her where my flat is, I have to obey what she ask, so I told her where I live. Why can’t I disobey her? I don’t understand what I am thinking. What is this feeling? When we arrive at my flat I have to get down, or I will totally lose control. I demanded, “Let me down, and stay here I get the book for you.” with a firm voice. She obeyed me this time, I was a little disappointed but I need to have a distance away from Jana. I run into my flat and bang the door straight into Jana face.  I dragged over with my injured ankle to the sofa and slump down on it. What is this weird feeling? What is this? … omg! Is this love? I have been thinking about her and my brain becomes all clouded. All I can think about is her. NO NO! I can’t be. I am in love with a girl? What! Can’t be, if so then….. I am a lesbian? I can’t be one! Can I? no! I can’t. Can’t! Is not normal. My whole family will find me weird and not normal. But I love her. All I can think of is her. ER, screw it! Who cares of what people think! I spring up and ran towards the door to reach Jana. Bang! I fall flat down on the floor from my injure ankle. Great! I forgot about my ankle. Ouch ouch, it hurts. I cringes my face from the pain.  *BAM BAM*, the door rattled “SILVER! Are you alright? If you don’t answer me in 5 seconds I will knock down the door!” as Jana shouting through the door.

“What? I am alright!” as I shouted back a reply, but… what? Did she really mean it? But I have to get to her. I slowly got up, careful careful. Or else I will fall again. I drag myself to the door and reach for the door. As I open the door I see Jana to be very worried and she said while examining me, “Where does it hurt? Your ankle?”

I smiled sarcastically with an inch of pain, “ehey, I am fine. Just a bit of pain.” Well, not just a bit. It hurts painfully.

Jana asked quickly, “Can I come in?”

“Yeah yeah, of course” as I replied with a smile to cover my pain once again.  

Without warning she scoop me up in her arm again, walk into the house while closing the door with her foot. She stormed into the house and place me gently onto the sofa. She pulled my shoes off without heisting and examines my injured ankle. Wow! My ankle is swollen! “Silver, where is your First aid kit?”

“oh! Is in the second draw of the cupboard on the left of the TV.”

Jana gently lifts my leg up, put it on a pillow to levitate my injured ankle and walked over to the cupboard to fetch for the first aid kit. As she is rampaging through the cupboard draw I spoke up and said, “I am sorry.”

“hm?”

“I am sorry for slamming the door into your face and… and pushing you away.”

She pulls the first aid kit out of the draw, closes it and said, “Of that, why did you push me away?”

“I…” I mumble while my face turns red. She walks towards me and bends down while opening the first aid kit to wait for my answer. “I love you!” my answer just burst out, I don’t want to reject my feelings anymore.  She stopped for a moment, stand up in shock. Oh no, she hates it. I made her hate me. I feel like crying now. oh? She sit beside me to avoid from sitting on my leg, and said while smiling, “I love you too.” What? Did I hear wrong? I burst into tears from the answer she gives me. She reaches her hands to my cheeks and wipe off my tears with her thumbs. At this moment our eyes locks on. Her head slowly move towards my lips, she whispered, “I am not letting you go this time.” Her lips press against mine. I closed my eyes, the sensation of her lips felt so warm. My heart is racing so fast that I am heated up. Her breath, I can feel it. But this did not last long, we parted our lips. I felt slightly disappointed for the quick realise of our kiss. Jana spoke up while smiling, “we need to treat your ankle first before we can carry on.” What! how can she say something so embarrassing!