dear soobin || yeonbin

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tw//talking about scars
there is no descriptions of them in here, it's just mentioning about cuts, nth major. you can exit if this makes you uncomfortable.

dear soobinnie,

welcome back to yeonjun weekly updates:)

this week was cool, taehyun and hueningkai announced that they were dating, and beomgyu and i told them about how we were both friends with benefits, and being the fruity people they are they asked us a bunch of questions. it's cute honestly, and i like how the four of us are close now. you should join us hehe.

beomgyu asked me why i keep on wearing jackets in school even when it's hot, but i'm not that enthusiastic about showing everyone in school my wrists with scars anyways.

but someone was mean to me, i could hear him talking shit about me to his friend who was right next me and i guess it didn't really help with my self esteem. then his dickhead of a friend pointed at me and yelled "are you talking about him??" and everyone who was queuing for their food stared at me. social anxiety go brrrrrr.

maybe i should start telling the three of them about my cuts, i'm not sure how i can keep up with my act any further. i'm not sure how they will react, but i guess i better tell them soon, it's better than keeping them in the dark anyways.

without you around it feels empty. no one is there to whisper "everything is fine" in my ears whenever i'm the brink of a panic attack, no one to hold my hand and comforting me whenever i feel like a wandering soul, it's just different.

why am i saying this as if you are dead? you're doing fine i presume.

fun fact: a snail can sleep for three years:)

reply back please,
yeonjun