Separation -- The Original

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*AUTHOR'S NOTE*

:D I really appreciated all of the votes and comments you guys gave me last chapter. They made my day as I kept getting vote after vote and comment after comment. It was great, so thank you so much.

So, enjoy this chapter guys!

8/2021: just a gentle reminder that I am trying to make this story more realistic (yeah yeah realistic werewolves aren't real shut up) so no more overreaction from our guys and I'm trying to make her separation anxiety more present because that's the whole reason this story started anyway. If that makes sense. Just bear with me (: I basically rewrote this chapter a lot of what is here is new so enjoy.

TRIGGER WARNING: mentions of sexual assault, you can skip this chapter if you need to <3 i'll mark the sections with ****** in case you want to read this chapter but skip that part
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Chapter Five
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I couldn't breathe.

The walls were closing in.

It felt as my chest was collapsing in on itself as I thought of what could happen tonight. What if they leave me? What if I get lost in the crowd and they can't find me? What if I spill something on myself in front of everyone and they all start laughing at me? What if I drop my cup because my hands are so sweaty and everyone laughs at me? What if they leave me? What if I throw up from how nervous I am and everyone laughs at me? What if, what if, what if.

My palms were sweating as I dragged them up and down my thighs, trying to calm myself down before I started crying. I felt the tears surfacing as I tried to focus on my breathing and not throwing up. It was not about me tonight, so I need to get a grip, and relax.

I felt a warm palm on either of my exposed thighs. Waves of calm washed through me as I closed my eyes and exhaled.

"Baby doll, try to breathe," Grey said as he kept his eyes on the road. I looked at him, and just stared at his beautiful profile. I exhaled again, closing my eyes, trying to push all of the panic out of my mind. They won't ditch me. They never would do that. They said they wouldn't leave my side and they meant it. They would never break a promise.

But this pressure in my chest just kept pushing and pushing and pushing. I can't breathe.

"One," Ryker softy said.

I gripped his hands as I felt the tears escape. If I hold on to him tight enough, then he can't lose me in the crowd.

"Two," he softly continued. I him heard take a deep breath and he squeezed my hands.

"Three." I was breathing too hard I could barely hear him.

"Four," I breathed out, and he squeezed my hands. I felt a kiss press against the side of my head.

"Good girl. Five," he continued.

"Six." I tried to slow my breathing. They would never leave me. They promised. They would never break a promise.

"Seven." I felt a hand on my thigh and a thumb slowly rub back and forth. I tried to focus on the warmth surrounding me. I can't let the darkness consume me. They would never leave me. They promised. They would never break a promise.

"Eight." I felt my breathing slowly return back to normal. I could breathe without it hurting. The tears continued to flow as I gripped Ryker's hands.

"Nine," he pressed another kiss to the side of my head as I felt the car start to slow down.

"Ten," I breathed out. The pressure was gone. I could breathe through my nose. I opened my eyes and peered at Ryker. He gently smiled at me and placed a kiss to my forehead.