☀︎︎𝙇𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙃𝙞𝙨 𝘾𝙞𝙩𝙮 |𝘊𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘥|✔︎

|Chapter 11: Evigheden|

Jeongguk's P.O.V

"Ae-ri ah you are here again. Didn't I tell you to take rest."

She didn't respond as if I'm not here.
She always goes to his room and sit by the window, holding his bunny pulshie. She doesn't talk to me. Only a word or two. Let alone having a conversation.

"Ae-ri ah please eat something. It's been two weeks. You are not eating properly, nor you are sleeping or taking rest. Please eat something. I can't see you like this."

She again like always just shook her head.

I placed the tray beside her chair. I kneeled in front of her and grabbed her hands. She didn't look towards me. I brought her hands closer to my lips and kissed her hand softly.

"Ae-ri ah! Sweetheart!" I whispered softly. Her brown eyes meet mine. The warmth was gone. My heartache at that.

"Sweetheart!"

I again kissed her hand. She shuddered and closed her eyes and gripped my hands tighter as the tears left her eyes. One after the other.

" I'm sorry Jeongguk! I-I-I can't. I can't d-do this. I can't eat thinking that I can never fe-feed my son now, I can't sleep thinking he is asleep for-forever. I can't rest think-thinking he's gone forever. I can't--- I just cannot thinking he will never be ba-back. I-I can't Jeongguk."

I couldn't control myself now. I was sobbing hard. I was trying to be strong for her. I was broken too. I was hurt too. The pain was unbearable. From my arms to the grave. I placed him in the grave with my own hands. The hands that wanted to hold him forever.

" Don't say sorry Ae-ri! It isn't your fault. I understand your pain Sweetheart. But you have to move on. You can't be like this forever. Jason would be so sad seeing his mom like this. Please darling eat something! Do it for me, for Jason! Please!!"

She sighed.

"O-okay! I will try it for you and Jason!"

"Thank you Sweetheart! And please eat it before it gets more cold."

I gave her the bowl of rice with some steak.

She started eating. I could see she didn't want to eat but she did it for me and our son.

"I'm done Jeongguk."

"But you just ate half of it Sweetheart. Finish all of this."

"No Jeongguk. I don't feel like eating more. Please."

I sighed "okay then."

I took the bowl from her hand.

"You know Jeongguk the moment I saw him. I wanted him to just be like his father. I wanted him to look like you. I wanted him to be a good person like you."

I wrapped my arms around her waist and placed my head on her lap.

She softly ran her fingers in my hair.

"Maybe have hair like you too. You have so soft hair."

I slightly smiled at that.

"Everything like you but not a mafia. I didn't want him to join this. It's really dangerous. You don't know but every time you go on a mission. I can't breath peacefully for a second."

"Even I wouldn't want him to join it."

"If our son would be alive now what would be he doing? Crying, being hungry, playing with his dadda, grabbing mama's hand, playing with his uncles. I wonder!"

I closed my eyes tightly. It was really painful. I wonder too. What if he would be alive? What if he never went away from us? What if this never happened? I wonder too.

"A mother will never get over losing her child. She lives with this pain every moment of her life."

She kissed my forehead.

"And I know you won't either. After all you are his father. No parents would forget their child."

"The pain of Birthing him was nothing compared to the pain of burying him."

"This pain is unbearable Jeongguk isn't it. It's forever, till eternity!"

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"The Hardest Part of my Day is Waking up only to Remember You are not Here and I have to feel that Ache all Over Again."

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Hey Jazzies

Happy Holidays!!❤
Have a good day ahead!
Hope you all are doing good!
Take care of yourself!
Bye!

~Author Min