Twins | Taekook

Chapter 4

Jungguk was trying to hurt himself with anything he could find while crying his lungs out. I ran towards him before he decided to bang his head on the wall.

I held his hands down and faced him towards myself to prevent him from grabbing something else. Then I sit on the bed, him still struggling to escape. He hits his fists on my chest but I don't let him go. 

He starts breathing heavily. "I want to forget- I can't forget- help me forget." he said while playing with a unique looking necklace.

"Jungguk listen, whoever or whatever you want to forget is not going to be able to get erased from your memory. You have to deal with it okay? And you can tell me." I already felt attached to the shaking boy in my arms.

"It h-hurts" he croaks out. "I know, but you have to be brave, okay?"

He moves closer to me and puts his head on my chest and slowly falls asleep. I lay him down on the bed and put a blanket over him.

I walk out to get my stuff, realizing on what just happened.

I walk back in to see him awake and I look at him confused. "You okay?" He nods and smiles slightly. I go sit next to him and he looks down shyly. "Do you want something?" I ask him smiling at his shyness.

"Yes, can we talk for a while?" he mumbles only enough for me to hear. "Sure what do you want to talk about?" 

We get to know each other and continue talking but I notice his eyes becoming droopy. "Let's sleep now, it's already really late." He pouts but agrees.

I lay down and instantly fall asleep.

The Next Day

I wake up to feel Jungguk hugging me from behind. I carefully turned around to see him. He was looking so cute and I just wanted to squish his cheeks.

I look at the time and try to remove myself from his grip but he whines and pulls me closer.

"Gguk, we need to wake up, it's our first day as a trainee." he whines again and buries his head in my chest. 

I chuckle at his behavior but then I realize we were getting late. I decide to let him sleep for a while and get ready. I get ready and as soon as I go to wake up Jungguk, the staff comes in and tells me to go for breakfast.

"But what about Jungguk?" I ask.

"We'll wake him up, you need to be down for breakfast." I nod and head out of the room.

"V-ssi, could you come up here please?" one of the staff called out as I was about to have a bite out of my breakfast. I quirked up an eyebrow but still followed.

I was led to my room and I saw Jungguk sitting up on the bed with a blanket wrapped around him. I noticed his tear-stained cheeks and worriedly kneeled down near him. "Don't leave me alone again." he mumbles loud enough for me to hear. He doesn't like being left alone.

"Aww I'm sorry Gguk." I say as I hug him, rocking our bodies back and forth. "Now go get changed and I'll be down waiting for you, okay?"

He gives me a small smile and walks away.

I'm almost halfway done through eating when Jungguk comes down. He seems to become nervous as all the hyungs look at him. "I'm sorry for being late." he says and bows a bit.

"It's alright Jungguk, come sit." Jin hyung said smiling at him. He walked over and sat beside me, the only place left.

"So Jungguk, we never got to know much about you." Jimin told Jungguk. Jungguk's face now had a nervous expression on it. I took his hand and placed it on my lap, making him feel safe.

He had gotten comfortable with all the members by now but still squeezed my hand time by time in nervousness. I smiled secretly at his progress. I wonder what made him so shy?

"So Gguk, do you have a sibling?" Namjoon hyung asked.

That was the question, Gguk froze like a statue. I looked at him worriedly. He looked back at me with teary eyes and then looks down.

"I-I can't s-say." His breathing starts changing as he grips on to my hand.

He suddenly let's go of my hand and runs away but we all hear him yell.

"I want to forget!"

I widen my eyes and run after him. I find him in our room crying on the floor. I sigh sadly and get him off his knees. "You wanna talk about this with me and everyone else?" He nods hesitatingly.

I carry him downstairs. He hides his face in my chest from embarrassment. "Jungguk are you okay? You really ran fast there." Hoseok exclaimed. 

Junggguk doesn't say anything so I take over the conversation. "Can we go to the living room?" I look at Gguk and he nods. "Jungguk wants to tell us something." The others agree and we all get seated in the living room. 

I look at the confused faces of the elders and nudge Jungguk to speak.

"I don't know how to start but I have a brother. He's my identical twin, I have known him for three years and yes, only three years because we were taken away from each other. I don't know his name or where he lives, I don't even know if he remembers me or if he is even alive to begin with. I'm worried that I will never be able find to find him. No matter how much I try to find him I can't, so I try to avoid him from being too desperate but I...can't."