The Mask

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 13

(Edited: 8/25/24)

Jahseh's pov/ October 18th, 12:12 PM

   I took every shortcut and detour to avoid Stokeley, he didn't need to see me and I don't need to see him...at least not right now. I just can't get it out of my head, the fact I just let him use me. How could he be fine with this? I thought we had an actual connection, I thought we had something growing. I won't let him just throw me like I was nothing, I refuse. I'm not just a toy he can throw away, I will make him understand that he can't just block me a forget about me.

   Once I get over this small phase I swear I'll be on my shit. I walked into Math class the one class that I can actually enjoy, the class where I can feel the smartest. As I was about to set my stuff down I heard the announcements go off "Please excuse this interruption, but will all students please gather in the auditorium for a Town Hall Meeting".  I let out a groan as I walked out of the classroom, I looked down the hallway to see Symere walking towards me. I knew that face. Symere was pissed and he wasn't in the mood to deal with no bitch or nigga.

   He leaned on the wall next to me and we didn't look at each other, "So who pissed you off now?" I said watching everyone walk by us. "It's these bitches that keep fucking staring at me like I did shit to them, They almost fucking tripped me and they lucky I had my drink because I woulda tore they hoe asses up" Symere chuckled. "Honestly if they do some shit just lemme know and we can tag team they ass, you know what I'm saying?... When you step I step" I said, 'cause that's always how it's been just Symere and I.

   "I know you got my back," Symere said looking at me and I at him. "Exactly, 'cause we're homies, since the sandbox," I said hearing other kids walk and talk. Symere had a sad look on his face but it soon faded. "Yeah we're homies," He said giving me a fist bump. It fell silent as everyone from this hallway had left the auditorium. "So you tryna go to that meeting?", Symere shook his head and I'm glad he doesn't wanna go 'cause I don't either, I'm not tryna run into Stokeley right now, I can't let him see that he broke me.

   If there's one thing I've learned from being in these situations it's to make sure you never let them see they hurt or broke you, never give them that satisfaction of them seeing your pain. Hurt in silence, heal in silence, and shine in public, it's cringy as hell but that shit actually works once you know how to do it. "So whatchu tryna do?" I asked. "Honestly...I'm tryna go home" he sighed.

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3:32 PM

   I walked into my house and the lights were off, I assumed my mom wasn't home. I hope she at least cooked cause I don't wanna starve. I dropped my stuff at the front door and didn't bother turning on the lights, I walked upstairs and looked around, the upstairs lights were off too. I walked into my room and the lights were off just like I left them, I dropped my backpack and flipped on my bed feeling the coldness of the sheets sink into my skin.

   I needed a nap, today has felt like the longest day of my entire life, it was so draining and every moment went by miserably slow. I kicked off my shoes and grabbed the remote, I decided to watch some Coryxkenshin because he always makes me laugh. It was so silent besides Cory playing on the TV, god this felt so lonely; I miss the summertime.

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4:09 PM

   The doorbell rang and I rushed downstairs to open the door, it was Symere. I smiled at him before opening the door wider, "Hey Sy". "Heyy, so there's a party tonight" Symere had a smile on his face but the thought of a party made me roll my eyes. "I am definitely not in a party mood, I just got my heart obliterated" I let a sigh. "Please, I don't wanna go alone. Plus this could be your get back at Stokeley"

   Symere was right, I can't stand around feeling sorry for myself. I need to make him miserable and the sooner the better. "You're right" I closed my door, "When am I wrong?" he raised his eyebrows. "Don't let that get to your head"

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Sorry this was kind of short, but I hope you enjoyed it!!